TYPEWRITER,

my sister was admmited to hospital,

2012-02-18T02:27:00.000-08:00

bismillah.

a few days ago,i called my mum.it was a casual and routine call but its rather late that night.i remember i asked mum to bank in RM100 to pay for the Golden Night event but yes,i keep the money as my savings.anyway,mum spoke in low volume (lower than her average voice) and i asked napa pelan suara mama ne?she replied abah tidur sudah.salahka mama ckp pelan-pelan.masa tu saya telan bulat-bulat apa yang mama saya bagitau.thats the end.

sekali,tadi pagi (like really pagi) abah called me.dia bertanya khabar sambil tanya perkembangan hidup.tiba-tiba abah cakap awa tau suda ka tu yang epah masuk hospital? ............ obviously no.dad told me my sister's kidney was infected that she had to stay in the hospital for a few days?weeks? :O before she was admitted to the hospital,her eyes and face were swollen and she had scabs.F T W she also urinate blood!thank god mum realized it early. T____T kalau TER-lambat,nauzubillah.

kesian epah,kecil-kecil suda kana cucuk jarum (yang untuk IV tu bhaa).sudah epah agak montel jadi susah mau detect vein dia.lepas trial error baru jadi.mak cakap epah menangis kuat-kuat waktu doktor cucuk tu.trial error dia sampai 4/5 kali! T_____T kalau saya ndak pa la,ini budak darjah 2.ndak sanggup mama tengok.

saya tanya la,kenapa ndak bagitau terus dorang bilang ko exam kan,nanti kami ndak mau terganggu konsentrasi ko. ; _____ ; betul la juga,le only little sister i got was sick of kos la worried sick juga.tapi,sehat sudah dia abah cakap. :) sudah keluar dari hospital.rupanya,hari tu saya call mama dihospital kasi kawan epah (bha,sudah budak kecik mana berani kana tinggal dihospital).patut laaa pelan suara.

terbayang saya epah tinggal dihospital,dikelilingi orang yang dia ndak kenal.i mean,kecik lagi bha dia tu.terlalu kecik bagi saya untuk masuk hospital.saya pun ndak pernah masuk (i mean ditahan) hospital.kalau boleh,hospital la tempat yang paling saya mau elak.susah oh mau berada disatu tempat yang mana harapan dan kematian bercampur.sebab bila ada orang yang gembira,mesti ada yang bersedih. (you know what i mean right).

on the other hand,im proud of my sister. :D itu tandanya dia seorang yang adventerous.ahaha.ya laa,apa juga yang dia buat sampai kana kidney infection ni?tsk tsk tsk.my sister is a risk taker.tho she was admitted in such a young age,i think she's strong.kekeke.sebab sebelum ini anak emas dirumah kana manja LIKE A PRINCESS makan kadang disuap,mau itu diberi mau ini diberi,dia hambur barang kami yang kemas.if only i was in sabah right now.

P/S ; what do you think about my new blog design? :)

living with insecurities

2012-02-06T05:22:00.000-08:00

hello readers.

nah,ambik kau.wallpaper laptop aku sekarang.

ddu dung!im writing again.

for a 9teen years old girl like me,phew.i have tons of insecurities.pretty much it all involve physical appearance.im not gonna lie,i also have conflicts within me.

okeh mari ber BM.

you gotta admit sekarang ne semua orang lebih suka tengok luaran daripada menilai dalaman.mungkin bukan semua tapi yep,most people i've met in my life begitu.

i mean,tengok jak secara relatifnya.artis dimalaysia kalau ndak lawa,ndak kurus macam artis korea (ya ka?) konpom susah mau naik.time masuk pertandingan memang la orang undi,orang cheer,juri puji.tapi lepas tu,keluar satu album terus menghilang.

i always think that im not slim enough.normally,i would control my food intake.sometimes i do lose control.I EAT EAT EAT and EAT.at the end of the day,guilt will run in my vein.maybe i was influenced by KPOP.i become obsessed to have beautiful figures like them.

then this feeling where i think im not good enough.you know,PASUM life is kinda hectic.people strive to achieve better result.memang ada golongan yg enjoy,relax tapi result gempak bombastic.ada yg study jak,ndak kuar petang tapi besa jak result (saya la tu hew hew hew).jadi kadang-kadang terfikir juga 'apa yg ndak kena dengan saya ne?'

bila masuk hal friendship pula,saya selalu rasa saya ne bukan seorang yg cukup baik.okeh,dalam persahabatan orang cakap kita perlu/patut/harus endure keburukan kawan masing-masing,baru lah true friends.actually,itu prinsip saya. :) tapi,sebagai seorang sahabat kita juga patut sedar-sedar keburukan diri dan cuba ubah sikit-sikit laa.tapi,kalau ndak pandai sedar-sedar,orang pun fed up juga.so,saya akan cuba untuk jaga hati kawan selagi saya boleh tahan.tapi,kalau sudah LIKE A BOSS memang saya pun LIKE A BOSS juga.

saya ada satu disease memang pelik.lols.i cant express exactly what i want to say.i swear every time i wanna talk i have to dig my brain.i struggle to find words.kalau keluar ayat pun,be tabur susunan last-last saya fed up.itu la most of the time lepas saya habis cakap,saya mesti tanya 'ko paham ka apa saya cakap ne?' tapi,untuk casual talk ndak la.cuma bila saya perlu menyusun ayat secara voluntary baru la masalah ini timbul.

ok la.bye.kite nak mandi nanti nak belajar dengan Ecah. :)

no kidding.

2012-02-04T08:30:00.000-08:00

hello readers.

its 5th of february 2012,exactly on 12.10am.today i will talk about the things that keep me moving,or rather the things that keep me from falling.

BIGBANG & 2NE1.no joke readers.whenever i think of quiting,or thinking that im not good enough.the would be the first thing that come to my mind.*ape la azwa ne.merepek je* excuse me,im not.there's no point to elaborate my reasons dan apa pun,YOUR ARGUMENT IS INVALID.
i want to know what lays in front of me.i have choices,whether i want to do it or not.sometimes,i do it not for the sake of living the moment but to know where will my choice brings me to.

i dont think PARENTS should be in the list because inspiration is a choice.your parents CANNOT BE A CHOICE.they're ESSENTIAL in your life,in every breath you take,every beats of your heart.so no matter what,mesti ada juga terselit parents kamu dimana-mana.i bet.

anyway,thats just my opinion. :P

let me entertain you.

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im not sure if you wanna read this. *i was about to elaborate why BB&2NE1 are my choices*

kbye.

hello february.

2012-01-31T09:36:00.000-08:00

안녕하세요!

ya saya tahu anda inginkan kredit syafiq ahadin.

happy february month readers!

time passes quickly i feel like new year was an hour ago.however,we hafta move on and leave the past behind.i will be taking my mid semester test on 13th of february which is the same day as BIGBANG release album (idk yet actually) but great,i cant spazz in TUMBLAH that day. (╥_╥)

anyway,im hoping february will be good to me.not that i dont want the other months to be mean but lets just focus on the present okay.

im updating my blog for the sake of my mind. *sigh* so in no mood to study and i guess im not sleepy so maybe i give it a go.

the good news is that today is HOLIDAY!

you dont have any idea how much i appreciate holidays these day.much more when its in the WEEKDAYS.its heaven i tell you. (even just for a day at least i can take a rest pffttt i need to study for mid sem okeh)

and next week,MONDAY and TUESDAY will be off too. (◕‿◕✿) oh how much i love this few weeks.the universe is doing a good deed.

blessings to count ;

sakeena and aliyah (ehem ehem my tutor mate) complimented on my painted nails.they said its pretty. :D
today is holiday.
i laughed pretty hard today because i watched BIGBANG parody.
i texted with him.

and im listening to TOP - of all days.

aigoo,i have class on saturday.IMAGINE!from 10 to 12pm. ; _____ ; i cant take this.i never had class on weekend since i ended my high school.

have a nice sleep readers!

안녕!

the best thing after a month of 2012 ; BIGBANG's comeback ✖‿✖

2012-01-30T03:46:00.000-08:00

anneyong!

kekeke.february is approaching,so do my mid semester test. ಠ_ಠ i can assure you i am really studying while im waiting for BIGBANG comeback like hell.

honestly,it felt like new year was just yesterday and i blinked and woah its february already.this year i will be 19 and next year 20 and so on i dont wanna turn 20 i swear i wanna stay 19 forever. (╥_╥)

my life is boring i can assure you i dont have any exciting stuffs in my daily life tho i laugh everyday. *sigh* the problem is that i hardly remember anything that happened in the past idk why.sure i can remember some but its so blurry im so frustrated.do you know what it feels like.its feels like you dont have any control on your life.i cant change my past,i dont know my future,so god please at least could you let me have control on my mind? ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶

but some too bitter or too sweet events are still fresh in my memory.

ahahaha.forget my rants just now.

BIGBANG will make a comeback soon! hew hew hew waaaahhhhh sdjfghdjsgfhdsgshajkb *fangirl life deal with it* (a❤‿❤a) from rumors,my husband is having a minty hair colour F T W.i've been smiling + excited + grinning during tutorial today because F M L im a fangirl. :P been telling my friends too bout their comeback tho they're completely ~~clueless~~ not a fan.even my dp in FB also their tracklist. :O

wednesday is holiday I LOVE MY LIFE because se7en will release his mini album.then next week also holiday on monday and tuesday sahdjsgfhsddsjfghsdj so many holiday!

look sometimes people make fun of me cos i like KPOP and it hurts really uhhh but later i decide to cut it off i have no time to deal with you all so yeah i aint even mad.but srsly,i dont complain the kind of stuffs you like or do so please could you just shut up and deal with it? :)

im very excited energetic triggered you could feel the aura in this entry. :P

yorobun,anneyong!

just a story about my mid semester holiday

2012-01-27T22:59:00.000-08:00

안녕하세요 !

holiday is almost over.today is saturday,tomorrow is sunday and the day after tomorrow is monday (ahaha,as if you dont know the days in a week).i have to be honest,a week of isolation and quietness really made me become an introvert person. :O the idea of seeing A LOT OF PEOPLE is not really a wonderful right now,trust me.

holiday was mostly filled with books (either educational or non-edu),online and going out looking for foods.the cafes were closed except the Maman cafe yet im not a fan of their foods except the roti canai.only yesterday a few more cafe start to function again.

before cuti start,there was a rumour that a girl was raped in floor 6. :/

the eff.we took all precaution steps available.locked all the doors every single time.each time i enter the lavatory i would *look right-look left-walk slowly* just in case.turns out its a FAKE RUMOR.

my friend told me its fake but there was really one 2years ago. O.O

i played in the rain,literally soaked myself.the WiFi is frigging awesome,nobody shouting at night (there's some lunatic people will scream every night i dont fucking know why and its annoying i hope s/he dies).i know im not making any sense but just bear with me okay.

its been raining constantly for as long as i remember.one time me and my roommate went jogging in the rain and everybody was like 'ohh,poor girls.do you need a ride?' but we said no.thats the aim.TO JOG IN THE RAIN. :)

to ease my loneliness(ahaaaa),i called my mum,i called my dad (my dad work in pahang,my mum is at home,sabah).texted with darling ray and some other friends.its pathetic really my holiday.i went nowhere fun except KLCC just to read PERCY JACKSON ; SON OF NEPTUNE and eat pizza. :D

pretty much thats all.

P/S ; V day is coming.tak boleh sambut tauuu. :P

but i wish i could celebrate with him. (｡◕‿◕｡)

whaaaaaaat,you cannot deny his aura.he's mine thank you.

INFORMATION PASAL BIDANG CHEMISTRY

2012-01-22T20:30:00.000-08:00

good morning sunshine!

ini information yang telah di ekstrak dari demo chemistry saya.

peluang kerja dalam chemistry ni sangat banyak.inshaallah memang akan ada.chemistry ni ada dua.satu CHEMISTRY satu lagi APPLIED CHEMISTRY.saya ambil applied.kiranya kerja nanti masuk dalam bidang industri la.

sebelum saya sambung master,saya dah kerja dengan dua company.first sekali dengan company yang buat syampoo,shower cream,etc yang teda jenama (cth GIANT) tapi saya quit sebab pressure.

pressure apa cik?

masa kerja ikut masa boss.kalau boss balik baru la boleh balik.bos kadang-kadang masuk jam 5pm kuar jam 8pm.sudah tu tak sedia tempat solat.kadang-kadang kena tipu kalau nak pegi solat.ada masa dorang bawa makan tapi kedai cina.sebab pressure,saya quit laa.tapi yang kerja kat sana,saya dapat buat syampoo saya sendiri,shower cream sendiri.

second saya kerja dengan company yang buat vitamin CHEWS (ka CHEWIS??) tapi boring pula sebab tugas saya hanya buat dokumentasi.

dokumentasi??meaning?

saya yang prepare kan manual lab untuk diorang buat vitamin tu nanti.segala procedure saya preparekan.kamus chemistry yang tebal tu,saya ringkaskan untuk jadi begini laa (sambil tunjuk manual lab chemist saya yg agak tipis).

jadi cik ndak pegang chemical la ne sepanjang kerja sana?

tak.sebab tu la boring.saya suka chemistry.last-last sambung belajar.mula-mula tu saya cari lecturer yang nak tanggung saya,lepas tu rezeki pula dapat scholarship.so dengan scholar tu la saya bayar pengajian.duit yang lecturer bagi tu saya guna untuk bayar kereta,makan minum.kira duit poket laa.

kalau lecturer tu tanggung kita,kita perlu ka kerja dengan dia?

itu tengok lecturer.ada lecturer yg nak kamu kerja dengan dia or buat kerja dia tapi nama kamu LANGSUNG tak ada dalam project tu.kena pandai-pandai cari la.kalau lecturer saya ne,da tak kisah saya buat apa pun.kira nya free to do any course.

jadi,kerja memang cari kita kaa macam mana?

ohh,korang kena cari laa.saya waktu final exam lagi dah pegi interview kerja.lepas habis degree,saya menganggur satu bulan.lepas tu dapat kerja kat company GIANT tuu.

ngam-ngam time tu lecturer kasi edar sudah attendance maka tamat la interview saya dengan demo chemist. :D thank you cik!

BAUCER RM200

2012-01-22T03:42:00.000-08:00

hello readers.

sihat kaa? :) sekarang KL constant hujan.jangan main hujan,nanti demam.

anyway,hari tu kawan aku minta teman pegi KLCC.selasa last week.sanggup juga aku pegi sebab ada kinokuniya.besok dia tu (rabu) ada tutorial chemistry,algebra&calculus dannnnnnnnn TEST PHYSICS serta lab physics.sebok seharian.

dipendekkan cerita,aku lepak la di Kinokuniya.bersama baucer RM200 yang masih belum disentuh aku round satu kinokuniya.ada satu blok tu,SEMUA DICTIONARY KOREA seja,siap ada offer 20% lagi kalau beli. *apakah,pekedai buku juga tahu pasal hallyu wave lantas menggunakannya sebagai pelaris barang*.tapi aku ndak beli,ada sudah satu aku beli dulu,plus internet laaaaagi packed dan berkesan. :D

setelah meround selama beberapa jam,bakul dalam tangan penuh dengan buku,sampai aku pening mau beli mana satu.sudah la mesti lebih atau ngam-ngam RM200 jumlah dia,makin lagi confused.mau ini tapi nanti sikit jak buku te beli.mau itu tapi mau ini juga. -_____- last-last kawan aku datang menyebabkan aku HARUS PERLU WAJIB membuat keputusan time tu juga.maka TERbeli la 5 buah buku ; 2 fiction dan 3 non-fiction.

masih berbalut okay.

KISS AN ANGEL - SUSAN ELIZABETH PHILLIPS

EVERYTHING AND THE MOON - JULIA QUINN

to be honest,aku beli ne sebab banyak teka-teki dalam dia. :D nanti aku mau jadi macam sir ikhwan.LOL.

alright,ini aku baru beli hari ni di clearance sale MPH.harga cuma RM10 sahaja!fuyoo,harga asal dekat RM30++ tau.aku selak-selak rak buku tu kan,ada buku ne TERsembunyi dibelakang-belakang.paling gembira!

blurkan seluar manchester united tu -.-

THE BOOK OF AWESOME.

dan terakhir sekali buku yang membuatkan aku rasa aku ne professor ialah INI.hahahahahaa maths.

-___- aku teruk maths okay tapi aku minta puji juga mau beli.macam best bahhhh.

semalam aku dengan kawan-kawan pegi tengok movie.

8.5/10

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU CINA!

generasi 90an

2012-01-20T20:52:00.000-08:00

heyho readers.

zaman hingusan dulu,ndak banyak gadjet elektronik.aku ingat lagi first time mama beli handphone Nokia (yang berANTENNA),punya la teruja.even time tu its still the infamous black-and-white screen.

PS I?PS II?Xbox?Wii games?haha.we got this!

first time bapa saya beli,saya GEMBIRAAAAAAAA betul.warna pink,ingat lagi oh.ada game tetris,tembak-tembak(seperti dalam gambar) sama ada lumba kereta.ada satu version yang ada lampu di atas sreen,supaya boleh main dalam gelap.tengah malam,kasi silent la supaya ndak busted.

lepas tu tamogotchi.

benda kiut ini umpama game boy sekarang.digital pet la konon.bagi mandi,makan,bagi tidur,kalau dia berak pun mau kasi bersih. ^____^ kalau kawan-kawan ada ni dulu,jeles la saya.haha.saya minta pinjam,dorang ndak mau kasi. 'eeeee,pigi beli sendiri bah.' ayat malar. -___-

kamu tau kotak yang diletak di luar kedai runcit,mau kasi masuk 4x 50sen?terus pusing kan,ada la bebola kecil kuar,dalam dia ada macam-macam mainan kecil.fuyooo,dulu menangis-nangis saya mau main tu oo. :)

main getah!takkan lupus ditelan zaman.

habis getah dirumah saya ambil bikin buat benda ni dulu.zero point,e-kiss(ahaha.ndak tau eja,tapi begini la kami panggil dulu),in-out.starting level dari kaki,level mahaguru jengkal 2.letak 2jengkal jari di kepala,itu la level jengkal 2.memang atlit lompat tinggi dikampung dulu.

terus ada main batu.

mula-mula cari batu diluar rumah,target is to find the most beautiful batu.kekeke.definition cantik ne ialah ndak leper,ndak tajam dan just perfect laa.you kind of know it by your heart.terus cari tempat yang smooth lantai dia supaya ndak sakit jari tergeser-geser.tapi,kami ada main batu 5.batu 5 ni lagi tough la dari batu 7.banyak peraturan kana cipta dulu,paling ekstrem bila ndak boleh ada bunyi.meaning dia batu tu ndak boleh berlanggar antara satu sama lain.bunyi jak,terus mati(another term. 'nahh,bunyi!mati mati.saya sudah.')

guli dulu lebih kepada boys.tapi kadang-kadang perempuan pun main juga.pernah saya ada satu plastik penuh guli.ntah dari mana saya dapat.tapi actually,saya suka tinguk tu warna-warna dalam tu guli.ndak pro main pun sebenarnya.sekolah agama saya dulu ada bawah kulung.bahhh,time rehat sana la semua budak lelaki kumpul main guli.

okay fine.ini game paling best dalam hidup saya!sampai sekarang pun kalau saya nampak ayunan(we call it ayunan in sabah) mesti 'O MY GOD,AYUNAN.' terus pegi main.tolak jak semua tu budak-budak. 'okay,budak-budak.kasi main orang besar dulu.lari kamu.' :D lagi best kalau kana tolak + berdiri.EPIC IS EPIC.pernah saya kana tolak sampai mau parallel dengan palang di atas tu. :O ndak takut,makin lagi 'laju lagi,laju lagi!'

yes yes,i wasted my money buying these box during my childhood days.sebab dalam dia ada biskut bula bersalut coklat + free toys.perasaan dia waktu buka kotak ni sama macam buka hadiah harijadi.

last but not least,FERRIS WHEEL!

tapi benda ni jarang ada.sebab funfair disabah selalu travel by daerah.so,yaa.setiap kali ada mesti pegi.tapi sedih juga sebab dekat 7tahun sudah ndak te naik ferris wheel sebab setiap kali ada funfair,sanaaaa saya di SMESH. :'( bila cuti lepas SPM,teda pula funfair. T_____T paling best kalau terstuck di atas tu.its like you're the king of the world~~.kalau pegi dengan boyfriend kan siok.~~

ni baru sikit ne.banyak lagi actually.tapapen,buah getah,orang-orang.haha. :)

sekian,

orang sabah yang merindui sabah.

source : various site found in google images.

KEEP CALM

AND

REMINISCE YOUR CHILDHOOD GAMES.

random thoughts

2012-01-02T01:57:00.000-08:00

evening readers,may you have a nice monday. ^^

lately,i cant eat.it feels like im full 24/7.i eat for the sake of the fact that WE NEED TO EAT AT LEAST ONCE A DAY (perhatian ; breakfast paling penting).i think it becos of the kesedihan yang berganda-ganda.

the best weight loss programme is a broken heart.

im not griefing,i swear.i just dont eat.entah hormon apa la yang tersekat di otak aku ne. :P

im also suffering some weird sleep disorder.LOL.bukan bhaa.entah,susah mau explain.lets just leave it there. :)
i will be in PASUM for less than 4months.oh yeah,i need to frigging pulun,pungut segala ilmu baru dan chow,balik sabah untuk bercuti LIKE A BOSS selama beberapa bulan.tsk tsk tsk.time flies just like that,leaving the negligent creatures behind.
when i reminisce back all the memories from high school,banyak rupanya sejarah-sejarah yang AGAK penting.wahaha.syafiq ahadin,saya pun mau buat post pasal kes-kes dulu.okbai.ish ish ish.tragis @ sandi @ EPIC @ etc. :P muahaha.

kbye.

new year yang tidak berapa new year

2012-01-01T04:03:00.000-08:00

hey ho readers.

saturated suda otak belajar maths maka beralih kepada laman sesawang. :)

semalam order pizza,makan ditasik dengan kawan-kawan.sempat lagi kacau itik-itik yg beristerahat?? di jambatan.macam biasa,ada fireworks.tapi kami ndak nampak sebab bangunan tinggi. :P

kemudian berjalan ke bangunan PASUM.haha.aku rasa ter freak out la tu pakcik guard tinguk CCTV.naik lif pegi tingkat 6.plan mau pegi bumbung tu,terus crita-crita sana.sekali be kunci. T____T paling kecewa didunia.

maka perjalanan diteruskan ke Tasik Varsiti.ramai orang kumpul-kumpul.macam kami seja yg 5orang.yang lain semua ramai (kesian betul).sekali terjumpa dorang judith sambut new year di tasik sambil BBQ.agak awkward tapi wahahaha,siapa peduli.kami bagi la dorang tu pizza yg tidak mampu ditelan sudah.

lebih kurang jam 1++ am kali sampai dibilik.terus before tidur tinguk jam lagi,2.02am.

tahun lalu ramai sms new year,tahun ne 3orang jak. -____- sangat la tidak diingati diri ini.LOL.bukan ada kredit pn mau reply.wahaha.

bangun lebih kurang jam 10am begitu.paling mengantuk didunia sampai ndak sedar jam 10 suda.EPIC.

overall,NEW YEAR 2012 biasa jak.teda family,teda cousins,... ; _____ ; biar laaa.yang aku harap sms pun teda.heiii.tetapi masih lagi boleh senyum ini.jangan bimbang. :)

kbye!

p/s ; meja semak gila.

Marilyn Monroe's Quotes(post pertama 2012)

2011-12-31T19:25:00.000-08:00

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”
― Marilyn Monroe, Marilyn: Her Life in Her Own Words

“A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“If you're gonna be two-faced at least make one of them pretty.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“Ever notice how 'What the hell' is always the right answer?”
― Marilyn Monroe

“Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't.”
― Marilyn Monroe

“She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important—you know ”
― Marilyn Monroe

“Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world.” ― Marilyn Monroe

“I don't mind living in a man's world, as long as I can be a woman in it.” ― Marilyn Monroe

“The nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least I can dream.” ― Marilyn Monroe

“You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.” ― Marilyn Monroe

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cepatnya masa berlalu

2011-12-30T08:18:00.000-08:00

hey ho world.

just a day before 2012.masa untuk azam baru! :) azam time birthday ke-18 ; less cussing.

the ultimate azam tahun baru belum ditentukan lagi.mesti fokus kepada 1 azam sahaja baru berpotensi untuk berjaya. :D azam-azam minor banyak dalam otak ne,tapi semua pun ndak layak jadi major. *sigh* its okay!i still have 24 ++ hour to figure it out.no need to rush.bila-bila masa pun boleh tentukan azam kan.

lecture cuma 3jam hari ni,no tutorials no practical class = HEAVEN = PARADISE.paling epic didunia.8-9am lecture probability,balik jak tinguk fringe,berkimia dan zzzz.3-4pm lecture integration,4-5pm lecture biology.dekat-dekat jam 5pm tu semua orang high suda mau pulang rumah,cuti 3hari kan.tinggal aku sama sabahan yg lain lugai-lugai dikolej. T.T jeles pula aku tau,melihat insan-insan yg balik ke rumah masing-masing.dulu-dulu high school aku LIKE A BOSS balik rumah setiap kali cuti.kadang-kadang teda cuti pun ahhh,peduli.mau balik juga. :) sekarang,heiii.bermusafir LIKE A BOSS.te pa.berkorban demi pelajaran katakan. :3 cousin-cousin aku kawin semua aku te missed.darlings aku semua disabah.

umur sudah 18,mesti tabah,mesti hadapi segalanya dengan cool. :D

she's pretty and awesome okay,deal with it.

ntah apa la jadi kalau aku pilih matriks labuan dulu.maybe be gila bha aku sekarang sama ex-smeshian sana. :) pegi pantai,beli coklat LIKE A BOSS,be cakap slang sabah LIKE A BOSS.aiii,rindu aku sama joke-joke SMESH ne.

tapi,takdir (LOL) aku pegi PASUM.best la juga.1Malaysia!wowwww,di sabah susah mau jumpa orang india.tia tau kenapa.banyak cina seja.sekali sini,heh.LIKE A BOSS.banyak benda aku belajar sini.slang semenanjung, :) apa benda yg dorang rasa lucu,cara dorang behave,they way they talk,how they socialize,how they think and so forth.perlu ditegaskan disini,memang maju gila la aku rasa KL ne.haha.ya la,mana da LRT di sabah.excuse me okeh.

tapi (nahhh,ada tapi lagi) aku rindu juga sabah.ei,tanah tumpahnya darahku tuuu. :) aku rindu pagi-pagi kampung,sejuk (even setiap hari bangun jam 10-11am).sejuk disabah,menggigit tulang.ndak la sampai ada ais tapi the kind that would make you really din want to leave your warm blanket.aku rindu ASTRO, :P aku rindu mau tinguk budak-budak (mentang-mentang sudah masuk U) balik dr SMK Lohan tu,walaupun geram mau tumbuk bila ada segelintir pelajar tidak bermoral yg eskep sekolah lantas menggunakan laluan depan rumah untuk eskep.hishhh,kecil-kecil eskep,merokok,bawa girlfren sana-sini.bila besar apa kau mau kasi makan anak kau ah?aku rindu mau kasi siap adik aku pegi sekolah,kasi pakai dia baju,ikat rambut dia,masak untuk lunch dia.lepas tu bila dia balik mesti disambut dipintu,kalau ndak menangis. :') aku rindu mau be gossip sama mama aku,sama adik aku.aku rindu mau be gaduh sama dorang.aku rindu mau pg rumah ray,aku rindu mau jalan-jalan dipekan ranau,be cerita sama cousin-cousin tercinta. T___T aku rasa x lama lagi semakin ramai yg akan menyusul kawin.eiii,banyak pula rindu-rindu ne.dulu,paling anti la kalau kana bawa pegi tinguk kawin,malas betul mau jumpa orang.sekarang,i would do everything to attend a wedding ceremony yg ada makanan sabah. :/ the point is I MISS SABAH.

macam mana la masa depan aku ne ah?takut juga aku.nvm,yang penting sekarang! :) mesti live my life to the fullest.yes yes.friendship,problems,conflicts,love,study,tears,laughter semua kana compact jadi satu.hebat tau jadi remaja. :) their ability to survive the catastrophic events are really amazing.apa aku cakap ne.

aku teringin betul mau baring dirumput,terus tinguk langit malam.aku mau buat dirumah,teda rumput dirumah tu.mesti dirumput juga :) mau buat sini,agak laaa.nanti orang bilang MENCAPAB. :D mau buat tengah malam didepan bangunan baru tu lagi laaa.kereta lalu-lalu sana.penat bha sini,memang betul la bila bapa aku cakap matriks (taraf matriks la PASUM ne kan) ne sibuk like hell (sekali dapat juga online,tidur).kalau banyak kali pegi relax dimid valley,BTS segala pandai boring juga. -____-

banyak pula idea aku malam ne. :) good night people!

tiba-tiba aku terspam CL. :)

anyway,benda-benda yg perlu ada pada 2012 ; glow in the dark t-shirt,studded jacket.

kbye!

26/12/2011 - 29/12/2011

2011-12-29T05:18:00.000-08:00

hello readers.

2011 is coming to an end.its time for new resolutions and hopes!so far,i have a couple list in my mind.making a list is easy,accomplishing it is the difficult part. *sigh* nevertheless,we cannot lose hope. :D

this week,has been a very---unexpected week.i fell in love and had a broken heart.~~haiya,why is that everytime i like someone,he always likes someone else?~~

there was no lab class this week,except physics.but dont even think about relaxing.its just the same.busy as always.im really tired.i practically slept in between the lectures,tidur nyenyak gila sampai perlu dikejutkan.

it just come to my mind that some people never change.you just adapt yourself so they fit in your life. - ______-

i want my friends.ray,darling.i really need them.maybe i should skip studying tonight,just to get my senses back,compose myself,held my chin up and say 'im okay.'

“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And baby, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.”
― Marilyn Monroe

kbye!

dua hari tidak belajar,rasa bersalah macam gunung everest

2011-12-26T01:12:00.000-08:00

hello readers.

*lambatmacamsiputtalianmakatiadagambar*

i've made some innovation to my dear blog.i just copy paste ALL design from my KPOP blog,talking about LAZY BUM here.

sepanjang krismas,TIADA BELAJAR.online,tengok tv dan makan.dan sekarang rasa bersalah macam kematian saja.bhaaa,ini la ni tau.

teda suda aku pasang chat box,malas.malas mau entertain orang. :) tapi,kalau mau follow,silakan.secara accident ter delete segala bloglist berharga.terpaksa search semula. -___-

kbye!

kesedaran melambung-lambung

2011-12-22T03:25:00.000-08:00

hey ho readers.

its been a while.

i've been busy with real life (alasan!).i received my result 2days ago?? its okay.im not sad nor happy.just glad i passed my target.at least 3.00. :)

soo,i've been roaming thru the internet for an hour i guess.i found a lot of useful information.tsk tsk tsk,and i've started to love my computer class.wahaha.particularly because i thought i am already a pro just because i get to access the internet 24/7 during my stay at home.truth is,IM NOT.lolololol.boleh-boleh term animated dalam Power Point tu aku ndak tau. (lihat betapa lembap nya saya,sehingga perlu menggunakan google untuk definition)

btw,its been raining fo a few days in KL especially during the evening.brrr,so cold.im writing this while covering myself with le blanket. :D

that day,my friend (which also a blogger) and I had this conversation on how to increase our blog traffic.wahaha.its already an OUTDATED convo cos it happened like 2/3 weeks ago.we figured it out that blogger like us (oke,actually its just me) need to post ENTRI ILMIAH.unless you're really popular,people arent really interesting to read about your daily life. (its just a hyphothesis).this works.le friend is already have 600++ followers because of the ILMIAH ENTRY he made. :)

kbye!

p/s ; hopefully i will be able to think of sth useful to post.

why am i losing all my friends?

2011-12-14T04:50:00.000-08:00

cheers readers.

merry christmas! :) 1Malaysia!

please note that the way i write this does not represent my real emotion.

lately,i've been painfully slowly losing my friends.i dont really know what did i do wrong.to keep myself from crying,i told myself that everything changes.even myself.so i could not blame them.cos in some point,some aspects,some way,i changed too.

its really-really-really awkward when i feel like im unwanted.O M G.i dont know where to turn.kekeke.funneh.when i made them as a priority and all they made me was an option.

but Aimie teach me not to regret anything in my life.

honestly,i want to hit anyone.or scream. -_____-

kbye! :D

semakin tua,semakin rapat dengan emak.

2011-12-11T05:34:00.000-08:00

hello readers.

long time no update kerana komited melakukan kerja-kerja di dunia nyata. :P

when i was in high school,i rarely called my parents.alasan ; handphone ndak kana benar bawa,malas mau guna public phone.nun jauh di ground floor + memerlukan duit syiling yg banyak (dorm dulu di floor 3) kalau balik rumah pun,no feeling.i mean,gembira la juga (home sweet home) tapi that intense feeling of truly being home wasn't there.pernah satu masa tu,parents aku merajuk sebab ndak kana call. :D

semenjak aku di KL yang maha ini,aku rindu betul mau balik rumah.mestilah,sudah terpisah oleh laut china selatan.tsk tsk tsk.aku call parents aku tanpa disuruh,aku mau cakap dengan adik-adik aku.i told my mum everything about my life in KL.i feel like its safe now to share with her.dulu tidak. -____-

things change.

kbye.

happy birthday Azwa! (If i could turn back time)

2011-12-04T00:33:00.000-08:00

hello readers!

just a short entry before i go for LOVE IS MOVE. :)

i actually celebrated my birthday last night,with KFC and cheese cake and stories from my friends.so today im staying in my room,not going anywhere.

last night i made a list before the clock strike 12am.

IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME,

i will not allow myself to believe what people critisize about me.
i will never fall in love with _______ .
i will never fake myself in the public.
i will be a confident me.
i will go for my dreams as young as possible.
i will appreciate my parents more.
i will never myself that im ugly and that nobody loves me.
i will make sure i discover KPOP earlier.
i will believe what my guts tell me.
i will help my parents diligently at the grocery shop.
i will never be cruel to my siblings.
i will trade all the useless stuffs i bought so i can refund the money.
i will be a brave person.
i will appreciate all the things that i have at the moment.

my friend requested me to make an article about my birthday WITHOUT ANY CURSING WORDS. :) okeh.

kbye!

paling EPIC di alam semesta!

sehari sebelum bertukar 18

2011-12-02T18:47:00.000-08:00

hello. ^____^

i've been trying to make lists about myself but failed epically.

im not that excited about my turning-to-18 cos uhh,i am far away from le bitches and family.and im planning to stay in my room the whole day tomorrow,online and doin tutorials.haihhh,dull nya hidup.

kbye!

when you dont know who can speak to with enough trust

2011-11-27T05:47:00.000-08:00

hello hello guys. :)

i think you can relate yourself with le title up there. ^____^ seriously,im on the verge of losing my nerves.its the hormones.yep,definitely.

i want to scream.or throw things (which i cant cos...DRAMA).i want to sing my heart out.i dont want to study.i want to jump.i want to lay down on the grasses and watch the sky,tonight.bloody guts,im afraid.i want to talk yet i know i dont know what will i spill out later cos LOL.i cant explain this extreme down feeling.i missed RAY and DULCIE.how i wish they were here.

ohhh,i deactivated my FB.not that anyone cared.

i done my hair with my friends.i tried to be helpful so i'll feel less sorrow??.it did vanish.just for a while.

anyway,if one guy really likes you,why do he never asks you out?huh huh huh?is it becos he's shy?or he cant face rejection?or becos he didnt want to?heck.i mean,some of my friends experienced this.okay,i lied.i experience this.le curious like hell.what's up with the changing glances?fck that.i hate it.its awkward.its like putting hope on the verge of a mountain?? (LOL.weak vocab) it can fall any moment from nao!

~~i can ask you out.definitely.i used to ask boys out.most of it,i got NO.im not traumatized by it.i just want to see who's brave enough to ask.if i can ask you out,why cant you?glances are ....~~ why did i even wrote all this???

anyway,im sticking with TOP.delusional.

i think im different.some sort of weird.i like doing odd things.not bad odd things.just odd.i always imagine things.even when im walking.i really want to lay down on the grasses and watch the sky.i dont have favourite foods.i dont have favourite colours.my interest in money is undoubtful.im materialistic.i love combining things that arent suppose to be together.i like bold colours.i learn how to rap.i feel guilty when i eat.i cry without reasons.i bleed myself.i was,i hope so.you dont really want to know what i think or do when im alone.i need to stop.im a freak.

kbye.

aside from praying,why do God invented me?

2011-11-26T18:19:00.000-08:00

morning readers.

because i dont know.i really dont know.im still young.i do countless of stupid things.i muttered a lot of bad words.sometimes i think i found it.some other time im lost.

every time i found a reason of my existence,the next moment some sort of magic will show that its not why i existed.im 18,i suppose ALL people will tell me to enjoy my life first.think about it later.hell no.i may be immature and childish outside but im flat on the inside.ya know what i mean right.i always think of what will i become at the end.

and because i cant find the answer,i got frustrated.i mean,god,why do i have to wait???nobody likes feeling lost.much more hopeless.sometimes i dont enjoy my life.i dont feel blessed.maybe its because im a visualize.i need to see things in order to believe.feelings are not enough.but i do believe UFO and parallel universe exist. :D

okay god.listen.or read.people said you din give me what i want becos you know whats the best for me,and that i already have what i needed in my life.but i need to see it.i need to touch it with my fingertips.i cant simply believe those words.maybe i can since people keep use that phrases that my subconscious started to fall for it.i know you didnt give me the answers because there's something you want me to do in order for me to get my answers,right?but I DONT KNOW WHAT IS IT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO.could you please just tell me directly?you know im a very simple minded person.i think everything in the simplest version.i can go beyond it but i dont think it'll be good for my comfort zone.

im not questioning your almightiness.NEVER.i just want answers of why i existed,aside from beribadah kepada Him.i want a scientific and understandable answers.

i think the education council should do a self discovery exam.

i have doubts on posting this.

been silent lately..

2011-11-25T04:08:00.000-08:00

becos im busy adoring my husband in TUMBLR.kbye.

im delusional.

pathetic fangirl life. :O

TAKE TIME TO ANALYZE THIS FACT

2011-11-22T05:58:00.000-08:00

MEDICAL : INTEREST OR PARENTS WISH

2011-11-21T03:07:00.000-08:00

cheers readers.

just now this uncle give talks about medical course in UM particularly.

skip this paragraph,im recalling what he said.

basically,there are 5 other sub courses in medical course UM which are MBBS,Pharmacy,Nursing and BioMedical and BioImaging??it'll take you 5years to graduate for MBBS while 4years for the other four courses,but maximum years(in case you failed that and this) is 7years.the day after your exam,the council will have a meeting to enlist the passed students and the next day(the day after the meeting) they will send the list to the Ministry of Health Department.a week after that,you'll be posting to the current lace(usually di daerah masing-masing).minimum pointer is 3.7 and above.the intake number is really small,i mean it!but if you're from PASUM,you're quite lucky because you have a special place in the heart of UM. :) e.g. kalau intake ada 70 orang,maybe 67++ adalah budak PASUM(anggaran okeh).

qualification is band 3 MUET,A for Bio,Chem,Phy/Maths and passed PASUM or MATRIX. (note ; for medical only)

most of the people you met told you to FOLLOW YOUR DREAM.lol,bitch no.the ugly truth is that we were somehow (not all of us,some) living under our parents wish.of all courses,why MEDICAL?

its a noble job (of course it is.dad said merawat orang tu kerja baik.berbakti kepada masyarakat)
dipandang tinggi oleh masyarakat umum (biasalah,doktor kan.semua orang pun tau yg doktor ne susah.kalau dapat jadi doktor,kira memang pannnnnndai la tu)
make your parents proud.
you are their only hope. (as for me,i am the only that tends to IQ.my siblings..we're all different.one to music,one to technical and one unidentified)
gaji tinggi,lepas graduate confirm dapat tempat even dihujung dunia.

because we dont want to disappoint them,we finally decide 'okayy,maybe i can do it.i'll just take medical.'

but how about your life?your wishes?

of course you can learn to love medical,to love being a doctor,you can convince yourself you can do medical.

dont you or we all want to know what it feels like to do what we really love to do and take it to a higher level?

'tiada peluang kerja.' 'tidak pernah dengar pun course tu.' 'boleh ka cari makan kalau ambil course tu?' 'ambil course ni laa,gaji tinggi.senang dapat kerja.'

kadang-kadang,kamu tau sudah apa kamu mau jadi,tapi kamu ndak berani / ndak akan bagitau parents kamu sebab kamu tau ndak kana benar jua tu.kalau kana benar pun,mesti ada juga sikit-sikit durang bagi hint tu 'kalau boleh,abah mau kau jadi doktor.senang hidup,gaji tinggi,orang pun pandang tinggi.' apa juga boleh buat kan,they only want the best for us.

fyi,we met a senior in medical course.2years straight you just read the books,memorize and exam.its very rare to get an overall A.asal dapat C,bersyukur sudah.he said,mostly yang jadi doktor tu semua pun ngam-ngam lulus (which is C).kalau dibandingkan kesibukan medical course dengan PASUM,macam 1/10 jak sibuk PASUM.

of course tiada yg senang kalau mau berjaya.tapi kalau ndak ditambah dengan MINAT,laaaaagi susah mau pass.

essay MUET hari tu pun minta pendapat kamu kan,career must be based on his or her interest.elaborate.mostly maybe setuju la dengan suggestion tu.

my point is ; our generation is living under someone else's dream.

sometimes,dari kecil lagi sudah kena cakap hari-hari yang satu masa nanti kamu akan jadi doktor.lama-lama kamu percaya yang kamu memang ditakdirkan menjadi doktor tapi kamu rasa macam ada yang ndak kena.even kamu convince sudah kamu mau ambil medical.

anyway,i focus on medical because..well,your parents wants you to be a doctor but do you want to actually?you sure??

kbye!

p/s : syukur la siapa yang suka arts tapi boleh angkat sains.talented!

YG FAMILY PHOTOSHOOT

SUDDENLY THE STAGE CRUMBLED.

the guy is fuqing gonna let them all die,he just run for his life.

GD's reaction will be forever EPIC. :P

2011-11-20T05:12:00.000-08:00

IDK WHY THE BB MOUSSE AND BIGBANG BUTTONS FAILED TO BE UPLOADED. -___-

anyhow,i dont have an inner so i guess i cant wear the satin shawl,for now.pffttt..JUSCO is on sale rn so go go go to MIDVALLEY! :D there's only a few pictures of my selcas in my phone.its weird.

kbye! *going to make resolution fo sem two*

EPIC THE ADVENTURES OF TINTIN asjdghsgfdhs

2011-11-20T02:38:00.000-08:00

cheers readers.

mood bangga kerana memiliki laptop baru.

we went to the cinema yesterday.its friggin packed,everybody wanted to watch movies.this uncle taxi told us the ending of The Immortals so we din watch it. *____* ending sudah busted,sangat pointless.

so we chose TINTIN.

serius gila EPIC.unexpectedly funny.kalau budak-budak yg dalam tu ketawa like a boss,apa lagi kami.its like you're watching the real person,not the 3D version.tengoklah sepa yg buat ; steven spielberg.

especially part TINTIN di Bagghar.sajhdghsgfs EPIC lucu dia.lagi lucu dari JOHNNY ENGLISH. :P the twin police officers pun ashdgajhd.really funny.sudah la kami duduk seat paling depan,paling EPIC sakit leher tapi ter cover oleh ketawa-ketawa.popcorn pun te lupa mau makan! :)

just go and watch laaa.ndak menyesal punya.bawa girlfriend,bawa kawan,bawa semuaaaaaaaa kawan kamu.

on the scale 1 to 10, i give 9.6.

pointless tapi mau dikepilkan bersama juga!

kbye!

p/s : TINTIN tu hensem.lol.

-random morning post4

2011-11-17T19:26:00.000-08:00

yo !

its rather quiet this morning because people are not back yet from their home sweet home.im sure more will be back by this evening.ddu-dung,i feel awkward when i went buying breakfast at the cafe ; i've-never-seen-ya-all-in-my-life.LOL.

anyway,tomorrow im taking MUET ; reading,writing,listening.i din prepare anything. *____* which means im dead,and instead of english i learned hanguk. ^-^ so far so good *ho yeahhh,LIKE A BOSS*

i asked a favour from le friend last night to cut my bangs,i want PARK BOM style,she cut KATY PERRY style. -____- i look weird.kekekeke.

3days before the new semester begin and i dont feel like i want to start yet.bangun pagi-mandi-lecture-tutorial-experiment.begitulahhh sampai bulan april 2012.baru fikir pun aku rasa penat sudah. -___- (pemalas kan) and then come the FINAL SEM EXAM,which brought alot of stress and pressure.~~MID SEM TEST okeh lagii,main tenyeh jak jawapan.kalau FINAL,ko ndak tau nahhh mampus laa~~. :)

actually kan,aku rasa bersalah tau,post-post di PASUM tu.semalam kana sound baru sedar.okeh will stop posting absurd things on PASUM,but im still gonna post my entry there.le sorry PASUM page. :)

apa pun semester baru,azam baru,semangat baru!

-do you really need to post this on PASUM's wall?

2011-11-17T06:39:00.000-08:00

since you asked anon,

YES .

did i answer your question ?

-this rant was supposed to be recorded

2011-11-16T04:45:00.000-08:00

content warning : has alot of cussing and bitching.

cheers readers.

anyway,let me get this straight.i want to rant.

according to thefreedictionary.com,rant means

v.intr.
To speak or write in an angry or violent manner; rave.
v.tr.
To utter or express with violence or extravagance

some time around this week,i logged in to my twitter and scroll - scroll le twits and this particular guy was mad because he was unfriended in this network site which i assumed FB.sayin he din need this bitch in his life,saying she's always the one who pretended to be flawless/perfect and telling the bitch to get lost.

my first reaction???

im pretty sure he talked about me because i did unfriend this guy like a month ago after some invalid argument.who told you to be a bragging shit?who are you to challenged me on such a stupid things?you insulted me ya know.

i know what i did was wrong.posting videos in youtube with free haired.but fuck you,i decided it myself.i agreed on the terms and condition that youtube is a fcking PUBLIC place that the whole world can watch me.i decided myself that im gonna hold all the consequences myself,like an adult.then you came in the picture.

"excuse me,sejak bila pula aku menasihati kau?"

this boy.

"well,excuse me.jadi yang kau baru buat tu tadi apa?meng encourage?or just plain insulting?"

it doesnt even look like you're informing.nope.thats not informing.idiot.

lets get back to your OWN points,shall we?

you said YOU DONT NEED ME IN YOUR LIFE.so why GET MAD when i unfriended you?LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.siap sampai pegi twit lagi (hoping i would read it,and i did).thats just a typical sign of an EGOISTIC man,my friend said.

you said I WAS THE ONE WHO PRETENDED TO BE THE ONLY ONE PERFECT.

excuse meeeeeeeee,who's the bragging shit here?who's the one who walking around telling people you have done this and that.who's the one who keep victimized themselves?who's the one posted bragging shit on their FB wall?

YOU.

i remember this one time he posted 'i fell in love with perempuan bertudung.' W T F T W . so during highschool,aint you never dated a hijabed girl before?YES YOU WERE.posting advices on FACEBOOK.yes its a good thing.might as well mencari kesedaran di FB.but you see scum,people get this instinct where they could tell whether you sincerely posted it or just bragging shit.and what you posted was just BRAGGING SHIT.

and thats why i unfriended you.

then you say "GET LOST BITCH."

ohhhh,im sorry.i have willingly,with open heart get lost from your life long time ago.to be honest,i dont even wish to meet you at KL anymore.well,fate has its own way to fuck up my life anyway.

you see,if it was a year ago.i might be kneeling for ya forgiveness.but na ahhh.this time.im fcking gonna make you more mad than you made me few months ago.im seriously deleting you from my hard disk.there will be no trace of you except well,....uh...emkayyy,lets just ditch this topic.

my point is,im not as weak as i was back in my previous life.

p/s : this is the first time i open up to this topic publicly because of the fcking nerve boy.i cant stand you anymore.

kbye!

-picky bitch picky when it comes to put songs in my phone

2011-11-15T22:38:00.000-08:00

anneyong yeorobun !

anyway,i dont know whether i use the correct term in my greeting. (--')

i kinda freak myself out cos...nigga,im so picky when choosing music.i mean thats a good thing cos im very specific when it comes to my genre (honestly,i dont even have a favourite genre) which means i want the best from the best.in the mean time,it cause me a lil trouble.

im getting bored with my playlist so i delete-delete-delete and delete the songs.then i will go on youtube,jenpoo,music charts to find a replacement.of course there's thousands,hundreds new songs been released everyday BUT do all the songs fits my music box in le brain?do the music is head banging?do the lyrics make sense?

first of all i hate slow songs.i could kill myself when i listened to slow songs.so far the only exception - paramore and lonely - 2NE1 are still in my playlist.everything else are catchy , electronic and fast music.when im in good mood,i listen to pop music.when im sad as hell,i still listen to it.what is the purpose of listening a damn slow suicide song when you're down?it'll only make you feel worse.oh yeah,it hurts - 2NE1 also still in le playlist.

*maybe A Good Man also considered melancholic*

my point is i cant find any good music right now and i want one! *sigh* or maybe five.

penghasilan lagu-lagu terbaik tidak sama rate nya dengan kepantasan saya cepat boring.i get bored on higher rate. -________-

but the good thing is,i cant keep playing the same song for 5times or until i got bored when i like a song.there's no doubt in my ability in that.

-random morning post3

2011-11-15T16:05:00.000-08:00

good morning stalkers!

target online : till 8.30am

i missed TABI. :3 i wish he know me.i wish he's my lover.that's not gonna happen,isn't it?at least in real life.pfftt.

tomorrow im goin back to le lovely university UM and im taking MUET.fuh fuh fuh.i prepared nothing.but wait,i have learn English since i was 6years old until im 17years old.how long is that?11 fcking years.what have i learn in 11 years?honestly,i dont even know.my grammar be tabur,my vocab is weak. -____- nevermind,complaining is not one solution for a problem.

you see,i must be crazy.because aku gila - gila mau bermastautin dikorea.wei,aku youtube semalam.korea is the most wired placed in the world.correction ; SOUTH KOREA.nearly all the houses have wireless internet connection.there's this smart house.omfg.everything controlled in a screen F T W i want to marry a korean.LG dengan SAMSUNG brand korea pulaaa.LENOVO pun (kalau ndak silap laaa)

my point is,im gonna marry a (rich,handsome) korean and fcking live there.

see,im delusional.

but one can always dream kan?

you say the are gay.

GAY WHAAAAT?

you're just jealous because they are more handsome than you.

kbye!

p/s : this is what i called a really random morning post.

-happiness is -----

2011-11-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

when you dont feel pressured with your study.
when you meet you favourite idols and s/he acknowledge you ( taking pictures,hug you,autograph)
when you have a lot of friends with swag.
when you can speak English fluently with amazing vocab.
when you willingly pray for Allah.
when you have an open-minded yet charismatic parents.
when you have good relationship with your siblings.
when you have a reliable friends (who knows when to listen and when to give you advices)
when you found a really good song with awesome tune and relatable with your life story.
when you feel comfortable with your body despite the skinny girls displayed in the magazines.
when you have a nice looking,well mannered boyfriend/husband.
when you dont struggle with pimples.
when you are good at this particular sport,like REALLY good.
when you do things you love without listening to the crap 'you cant do it.'
when you have good fashion senses.
when you can rap.
when you master one or more foreign language.
when you receive a chocolate from an anonymous (someone is actually acknowlede your existence)
when you play at the beach on sunset (optional with friends or loved one)
when you have your own income.

k,im outta here.

p/s : because i found A Good Man - BIGBANG is good i cant stop listening to it ajdsaghdgshfsa and it was out since 2008 sajdgshfgs where have i been F M L .

p/s/s : now my hormones demand me to starve myself.

greyson chance,apakah??

2011-11-14T05:22:00.000-08:00

cheers readers.

my hormones are on its peak so my fcking nerve is kind of out of control too.i suddenly crave for doraemon (thanks to daesung).i want cute stuffs.i dont know,like the Hello Kitty that Bom unnie owns.maybe i shud buy cute ribbons once i reach KL.yep yep,i'll buy the Hello Kitty nail paint at SASA.basically,maybe i'll go all pink for a week or two. *shrug* i started being a TUMBLR ADDICT again,and BLOGGER ADDICT.jeez,i started staying up late at night (again). <-- as if i sleep early before.

so,last night or two nights ago i watched AIM in channel----i dont fcking know.im not into malay's music (im sorry) so yeah,i watched cos mum was holding the remote control.then bla bla bla this greyson chance kid appear to make a performance.okayy,najwa latiff performed before him and they did a duet on paparazzi by LADY GAGA.the fangirls screamed like there's no tomorrow so i guess he's an hot item in malaysia.saying justin bieber shud be aware of greyson chance cos he'll take justin's spot and so on bla bla bla.

my point is,he is popular.

NAME : Greyson Michael Chance

DOB : August 16, 1997

INSTRUMENTS : Piano,vocals.

*THE FUCKING NERVE*

he's like what---13?14? and already this famous.i searched his tag in TUMBLR and he's been in singapore,malaysia (obviously,even held a live showcase in KL and about to held one in 1Borneo Hypermall in Kota Kinabalu,Sabah).(-.-') if Bigbang fan is VIP,2NE1 is blackjack then greyson's is ENHANCERS.~~anyhow,im glad his manager didnt forgot about Sabah.~~ i bet he's making more money than you.

then i youtube him.the first phrase i heard was 'you never enjoy your life' and i think 'okeyy,he sounds good.i can give a chance to this one."then turns out i've been replaying the song for the 2nd time already.he sounds good and his piano is effing cool. :3

you're so afraid of taking chances.how you gonna reach the top?

kbye!

here's his MV,enjoy!

kalau syafiq ahadin ada nigahiga,saya ada kingsleybitch.

2011-11-13T22:15:00.000-08:00

cheers bitches.

i went blogwalking to le friend's blog ; Syafiq A. and read his particular entry >> YOUTUBE CELEBRITY - NIGAHIGA << *squint eyes*

lets make one,in my version!

im a lazy ass to google his real name,but he goes with ItsKingsleyBitch in youtube.
i first know him thru the infamoussssss TUMBLR.his .gif are fucking funny.

the first video i watched was OVEREXPOSED : REBECCA BLACK

he make me go sajdgshfgdshgfsdhfgsj

he taught me cussing,alot.even eminiem lose.

then come OVEREXPOSSED : GRENADE

i go LOL'd again.

then OVEREXPOSSED : PLANKING

for more video , visit his youtube.

kbye!

i cherish every mistakes i've made.

2011-11-13T07:59:00.000-08:00

cheers bitches

le husband so handsome. T^T

it suddenly striked me yesterday,you know.all the mistakes i've made.some of it was fcking multiple times (meaning im not learning from the past,yet) and some of it really-really hit my nerve that i swear i would never do it again.

to think back,thats what made me into the me today.if i didnt do that,maybe i wouldnt act like this today.if i didnt do this,maybe i wouldnt ever feeling like this today.if i didnt fcking do that thing,maybe i wouldnt be carrying this regret for the rest of my life.but oh well,past is past.nobody ever invented a time machine so i have to carry on those shame,embrassment and anger for my whole life.the only thing i can do now is MAKE PEACE WITH MY PAST.

as an 18 years old teenagers,you expect me to learn EVERYTHING from my past?hell no.i do the same mistakes again and again becos i friggin think things will change if i give it a second chance.but what do einstein's definition of INSANITY?

doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different result.

i must be retarded.

maybe its because i never or hardly lose HOPE on something.when everything else is gone,HOPE remains.okayy,i do lose hope but only when the situation is really-really-super-duper-epic terrible.which rarely happen.and when i want to,this feeling 'so,why now?after everything you went thru?' will flood le mind and ddu-dungggg.i refuse to lose hope. (anyhow,how is this connected to my mistakes entry?)

woahh,im a heart guru! :P

kbye!

le forbidden affair.

do you know how much i love that man?
ENUF FO ME TO KILL THE GIRL IN THE MV.
(click the play button,NAO!)

[11 11 11] 1st Giveaway Myna !

2011-11-12T22:14:00.000-08:00

>> CLICK HERE TO JOIN <<

i feel lucky this time so i got this instinct to join this giveaway.I LOVE RM 111 ! :)

let me explain why i want to win (tho cik Myna tak suruh pun)

i want to collect money for my father's surgery and im enrolling in this one KPOP contest.if i win,i'll be going to South Korea (if and only if) so i need money for the flight ticket and accomodation.

tag ;

*syafiq A.
*syafirah ruslan
*aliyah

done! due date on 30th of Nov 2011.

2 in 1 entry !

2011-11-12T21:27:00.000-08:00

jjang!

i uploaded a new cover.zeriously,by the 3rd take i was so sweaty and tired(just back from a day out with le friends and straight forward recorded it).forgive me for being 'ehhhhhhh,W T F is this girl doing?she suck!' i'll do better next time.i failed the tilt-yo-ass-left-and-right so yes,EPIC. :) anyway,dont watch if you dont want to bleed your eyes (okayy,CLICK THE PLAY BUTTON NAO!)

yesterday,me and my friends went to Desa Cattle,Kundasang.the auntie (Dave's auntie) gave us free milk!watchaaa!susu yg kamu beli harga RM 2?? di Koop tu kami minum free. :P anyhow,we took a lot of pictures.makaseh kepada yg memiliki camera sony 5.1 MP,maka terhasil la gambar yg agak EPIC kecantikannya.

susu free doh. *style ecah*

Dave . Azwa . Syafiq . Fareha *tiada dalam gambar atas sebab menjadi photographer ; Adhan*

kana duduk - duduk sudah tu lembu.lmao.

taman di pekan ranau.aku saturang jak yg hyper mau jalan-jalan.aku mau pegi tamu,dorang ne mau.aku bawa round-round,dorang ne mau.ray bawa naik jejantas,aku ne mau. :P last-last ke kundasang!

Azwa . Adhan

dan jangan berkata apa-apa.dia single tapi unavailable.serta sepupu saya.

apakah?gelappp.

THE BOYS

tsk tsk tsk.rendah sungguh.

aku sungguh menyukai pose aku disini.

KFC TIME LUNCH (setelah tiba dari kundasang)

en. syafiq mengatakan dia sungguh kiut dalam gambar ni. *____-

sekian,kbye!

11 / 11 / 11

2011-11-11T07:37:00.000-08:00

i wish

i have more money
mum and dad let me take arts
im fast in learning dance steps
i dont have to fake myself whenever im in public
i have a nice boyfriend
i have flat abs
i have Beats by Dr. Dre
2NE1 and Bigbang acknowledge me
Park Bom knows me personally
im a korean
im an ullzang
i have flawless skin
something sweet will happen on my birthday
i look cute when i take stupid selcas
im taller
my blog is famous
dad become healthier
i could go back in time so i could grab the missed opportunities
wars never existed
im famous
i have everything that i want.

-they say i look like Agnes Monica

2011-11-11T05:41:00.000-08:00

cheers readers.

not a show off statement.but i remember people did adress me for being look alike Agnes Monica.I remembered it just now so i googled her (pictures).

and then there's me

berabis aku cari persamaan,teda pun. -____- perasan jak aku ne.

kbye!

HELP ME TO WIN YG FAMILY CONCERT TICKET!

2011-11-10T05:57:00.000-08:00

i opened FB and saw this.

klik untuk meng obesiti kan gambar.

i go asdjfdsgfhfdhghfdjk.

i want to join it.

thats my comment.

help me??i'll give instructions.

go to this link. http://apps.facebook.com/starindex/?startalk=107
scroll down until you see my comment,and click the LIKE button.

easy,right? :)

please help me.i really want to be part of YG family.

kbye!

-le tag from HanaHyun

2011-11-09T21:38:00.000-08:00

cheers readers.

made some changes in le blog. :)

hanahyun-ssi has tagged me.kamsahamnida! *bows*

1- Suka buat ape time bosan?

most of the time i online,or read.if im home(not at UM) i dance,watch TV,sleep.fo now,i dont have a laptop so yeahh,i dance.

2- Cita2 nak keje sbg ape?

i want to do things that involves art.i love arts.but le parents want me to be a doctor/dentist.

3- Pilihan korang...bercinta selepas kwen atau bercinta dahulu?Knp?

bercinta selepas kawin is sweet but then,easy to say than do.but i really prefer the first choice.kalau bercinta sebelum kawin,semua benda manis sudah berlalu time couple.lepas kawin nanti tinggal yg pahit-pahit. :O

4- Korang suke menari tak?

adssafdsghfdjkghdfjghsd yes,so much!

5- Pendapat korang tentang blog sy..

pinkish. :3

6- Impian korang yang tak tercapai lagi...

/south korea /beats by Dr. Dre /a boyfriend /nolza&bigshow /money!

7- Suka menonton wayang tak?kat mana tempat favourite?

sukaaaa!well,so far GSC MID VALLEY?kekeke.the nearest in town.

8- Apa korang pnye koleksi peribadi?

KPOP STUFFS,BOOKS

9- Kereta Idaman?

honestly,i dont know.i dont have one.

10- Teringin nak jumpe siapa?

TOP,PARK BOM,BIGBANG,2NE1.

11- Kejutan apa yang korang pernah dapat/terima?

you see,not many people give me surprise.

*uhuk.i copy paste seja.*

I C W U D T oppa. LMAO.

i tell myself not to break down

2011-11-08T07:18:00.000-08:00

*just dont read if you're gonna bash me back.i swear my cussing hormones are in adrenaline state*

yes im not being grateful for what god have given to me.yes i want more or at least change my life.yes i want to do everything in my own way but people,fate wont fcking stop blocking my way.

i learn not to complain for the past few weeks?months?whatever.

i hate it when im confused.i hate it when i dont know things.i hate it when im scared,when my paranoiad attacks me.you know how it feels like to be terrified by something you not so sure of?i hate it when things dont go the was as i plan.i hate it when stupid fcking fate,destiny come in my way.

i was like,what the heck?!can you just leave me alone and let me do things.

and now,here it comes again.the feeling of being a LOSER,currently running in my vein.le lungs is suffocated and heavy F T W.

i hate it when i make a wrong decision.i hate it when im hopeless in my own life.i want to do this,they want me to do that.

i admit it.i still had this thing about the youtube stuff.thats the thing i love doing.its my passion.its what i've been dreaming of even before i leave that fcking school.and then puff!i deleted it because people told me to.well,fck you azwa.who told you to obey them?

then my desire for south korea.this is stupid but i think im off the limit here.if they have money,i want money.if they have that,i want that.if they have this,i want this.which actually I DONT HAVE IT ALL.

i think if i make a ranting video,it'll ended up with cussing a lot like a boss.

i hate some of the people in my life.i wish them die but i know god will never grant it cos bad wishes just never does.i hate the school system,why would it have to be such EXAM ORIENTED?i love some of the people in my life but they just dont feel the same way as i felt.that suck.i hate myself because i rush things.i know shouldn't but i did.and look what it made me?

i want everything.its so simple.

and thats why i tell myself not to break down.

i trust people and they crossed it.i love people but they dont love me back W T F is the fate is doing to me?!oh maybe im too _____ in my afterlife.

and thats why i tell myself not to break down.you guys like my status without even know why i posted it.lol.

kbye!

p/s : you see jack canfield,sometimes you need to complain.

*currently there's no gif to interprete my state*

*and my english suck.missing words here and there,grammar fail.*

-le weird dream

2011-11-06T20:46:00.000-08:00

cheers readers.

someday i'll meet you.xoxo.

last night i fell asleep while reading The Lost Hero.i dreamt of something weird.

i got married.to a man i barely know cos my parents arranged marriage me.i dont even why i agreed.so,the wedding went on smoothly.my husband is fat and uhhh,clearly not appetizing.but i only realized it when we're already in the bedroom.i said to myself 'there's no way im gonna have sex with this man.' so i find excuses to,you know,not having the first night whatsoever.i succeeded.booyah!the next morning,i talked to my mum.i can remember clearly what i've told my mum.'i want a divorce.' mum said 'but he is the best choice.' which i replied 'i dont care.i want a divorce!' then i went away.

you see,upon dreaming there's only one particular guy keep coming into my mind.like 'i want to get married to him but uhh.is he good enough?' something like that.the thing is,i dont like him.i dont know why he was in my dream.from experience,i learn not to trust my dream.tho most of my dream did come true.i had this ability 'dream come true' where subconscious events in my sleep come true after some time.

so,lord,demons,whoever is messing with my mind.GETTHEFUCKOUTOFMYMIND.

i dont even know i want to share this story.maybe cause its weird. =________=

kbye!

just because i dont have the necessary tools to do all my projects,doesnt mean i cant make it real.i just have to do other preparation.

-what if malaysia has no foreigners?

2011-11-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

earthlingsssss,'sup!

im home finally!the bad news is that i dont have any laptop to online that i have to borrow mum's. -___- emo.i mean seriously dad,i cant wait until SEM 2 for a new laptop.banyak benda aku mau accomplish ni.doing cover,dancing and shopping. :D but how can i do it all without a laptop and a camera?! F M L.

------------------------------------------

anyhow,malaysia dis full of foreigners.hei,you look left bangla.you look right pilak.you look in front indon.you look behind filipinos.zeriously guys,i went to the imigresen the line for INTERNATIONAL PASSPORT were long like a boss.okayy,maybe they're on vacation or something.

then i hop on unser and there's this one pilak guy.well,he done nothing wrong.he's just a foreigner.then,sampai kundasang suddenly this one pilak guy again hop on with us.i swear he smelled awefully suck.i mean,amagad.amagad.then suddenly this lady wear her johnson baby lotion and HAIL TO THE HELL,the combination resulted of some new chemical aroma that uhhh.hard to explain.

i know they're here to make some living.but sometimes foreingers annoyed me.kalau aku pegi poring,bha jan harap la aku dapat berenang dengan selesanya.full bha tu pool dengan pilak.ko paham ka apa yg cuba aku cakap ni?aku pegi kundasang,bhaaaaa.be tabur pilak.aku ndak kisah.tapi itu laaa,AKU ANNOYED SAMA KAMU KADANG-KADANG.

tapi,kalau dorang teda ndak bleh jua.siapa mau jadi buruh?siapa mau jaga gerai?siapa mau tanam sayur dikundasang?siapa mau angkat-angkat barang?

kbye!

-bitches i miss

2011-11-04T03:35:00.000-07:00

im back.because exam was finished,i wanna blog everything i've been keeping in mind lately.there's a lot of topics actually but lets do it one by one okay,beginning with -bitches i miss.

top of the top.

FAREHA QUONITA & DULCIE J.

CYNT

i wanna have a day out with you all! xoxo.

kbye!

goin to midvalley.

-FAQ

2011-11-03T23:04:00.000-07:00

cheers readers!

ain,last night u asked me who is my husband.there you go. ^___^

le Brooklyn Boy.

i just finished my final exam.its not that good but okayy laa.my dad called me after the paper and he got upset when is said i cant answer some of the Q's. -___- that day i told them im really down with my algebra,they okay pula.heiii,parents.

for the past 2 weeks,i studied with my friend and her girang roommate. :) i mean it.SHE IS REALLY GIRANG.i learn to speak semenanjung and they learn to speak sabah.then when the clock strikes 12am we go crazy.making stupid jokes here and there. ^_____^ i enjoyed the time i've spent with them.

anyhow,FAQ by the semenanjung people.

/kau makan ulat yang gemuk-gemuk tu tak?

#NO.i dont eat that ulat yang gemuk-gemuk.in fact,at my place we dont eat that thing.i know some region do eat that ulat but i dont know where.i never saw it and i will never eat it.

/kat sabah ada rumah panjang?

#of course tapi untuk pameran jak.di Sabah Tea ada satu rumah panjang.kalau mau tengok sendiri datang la sabah.nanti aku jadi tour guide. ^ _____ ^

/kat sabah ada ape?

#urmmm.ada rumah,ada kereta,ada kedai,ada 1B,ada kucing,ada pejabat pos,ada internet dan ada AKU.

/apa makanan sabah eh?

#bambangan,tuhau.so far itu jak makanan unik yang aku tau.ada lagi tapi ntah apa nama dia.

btw,aku pun ada menganalisa juga keadaan di semenanjung. :) lets see what i got.

you all semua suka sebut ;

serius aku lapar.
kelakar giler.
tension aku.
weh,kau nak ke mana?
lawak la awak ne.
comel nyeeee.

anyhow,tomorrow im going to sabah.i miss sabah!i miss my bitches.

and tonight im going to rob midvalley.well,i think the whole PASUM will ambush midvalley. :) see you there!

kbye.

ugly girls should-

2011-10-27T23:18:00.000-07:00

realize that being ugly doesn't mean they cant have what they want.
be proud because they are not sluts,fucking their boyfriend.
realize that even an ugly duckling can become a beautiful swan once they grow up.
know that there's people out there who love them for who they are regardless their ugliness.
know that they're not ugly.they believe they're ugly because people told them so.
realize that being ugly doesn't mean they are the social reject.
not took their own life just because people told them they should.
not try too hard to please people.
realize that sometimes beauty can be made using makeups.
bear in their mind that physical beauty fades.
always believe that what goes around comes around.
realize that they still can have a boyfriend.
realize that they have every right to be treated like a normal human being.
have the courage to slap the bitches who mock them.
wake up feeling beautiful.
know what is TUMBLR.

the other day my friend told me there's this #uglygirlsshould trending in twitter.so,like really people??how could you say that?!that so-ugly-girl is a GIRL and your mamma was a what??a fucking cat???think laa.your mamma has been a GIRL too.i hope your daughter will be ugly.

kbye!

p/s : BOMMMMMMMMM.

i want to take a snap with BOM!

doubtful

2011-10-25T03:12:00.000-07:00

good day readers.

finished my MUET writing,listening and reading today.i did quite okay i guess.tomorrow will be deepavali right?HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO MS ANN AND MR JOHN! :)

physics I,how should i say this.i made stupid mistakes. *shake head* it was like the subject I berabis belajar,then poof! ruined by stupid mistakes.

honestly,i dont know if i can answer Biology perfectly like i always do.i suddenly feel this subject is a burden and tiring.i used to love memorizing but seems like i changed.there's too many facts to remember.when i say too many,im not kidding people.rasa macam 1 buku mau ingat untuk 1 sem.no kidding.no joke.

thank god tomorrow is off.idk what will happen if i sit for exam tomorrow.maybe the paper will be still crystal clear when the invegilator pick it. -___- no joke.extremely tired to the point i have headache.

IM NOT TRYING TO BE DRAMATIC.

thats just how i've been feeling lately.

i need some new music for my ears.kbye!

WISHLIST

2011-10-16T07:05:00.000-07:00

flat abs
Beats by Dr. Dre
Louboutin's pump heels
DSLR
a boyfriend. :P

kbye!

random morning post-2 (pictures from my handphone)

2011-10-15T09:24:00.000-07:00

@sakeena rosli,punya hasil tangan. :)

okayy,jang guen suk was in BTS.so do Kim hyun joong.

especially your life.

Dewan Kuliah PASUM.selesa,sejuk dan strategik(untuk menerip) :D

CUTE!

and then thats me. -_____-

le pendant. :)

aizat and judith.

p/s : current wallpaper.

painted my nails.thank Jud! xoxo.

bim bim bap?? *____^ food junction MidVallley.hafta to tell you,not my cup of tea.

in the taxi.

this is what happen what a tumblr girl do.

kbye!

physically and mentally exhausted

2011-10-13T21:45:00.000-07:00

hey hey ho world.

past few days were left empty in my blog.im busy studying actually.there's still many topics to cover and time is running up.my MUET speaking test will be next week on 19th October.WISH ME LUCK! :3

why do i feel like time is always not enough here?sleeping(at night!) feels like a waste of time,relaxing even just for half an hour feels like a wast of time. :/ my roommate study 24/7 and she's like the A+ student while ME,pressured and then have to extend my time too.it feels like this

if she's and A+ student and she's studying like that,how am i,the A student should be studying.in short,if her effort is 2x,my effort must be 2x3x4 or higher. -_____- thats the analogy.it do make sense right? :/

i spill it out on my friend just now.truth is,it spontaneously came to me why did i was feeling so down since entering PASUM.so i can say i now know what is the roots of the problem.heh,i do really take a long time to analyst something.do i? :/

kbye!

*no picture added since line is acting shit. -_______-

mau gemuk senang,mau kurus susah.

2011-10-11T10:27:00.000-07:00

hello people.

i have this sudden urge to post something though i was suppose to be studying or doing the tutorials.i called my mum just now.she told me not to starve myself,initially.

mum ; jgn kau be lapar sana.makan.

me ; ya bahh.mama mau tau berapa sua berat saya?

mum : berapa?

me ; 52kg.

mum ; what?!pegi be diet!senaman bah.apa kau buat disana tu???

me ; belajar belajar makan tidur.

mum ; heiii,gemuk sudah kau ni.tembam betul sudah kali pipi kau.

me ; kekekeke.nanti disabah saya jogging hari-hari time cuti.

mum ; aii,jgn begitu.mau gemuk tu senang tau,tapi mau kurus susah.

me ; :/ okayy,will turun bersenam besok. *____-

think back,its REALLY HARD to lose weight,unless you dont love foods.I LOVE FOODS MORE THAN I LOVE PEOPLE.kekeke.sudah la KL ni macam-macam makanan yg aku belum pernah try,so sekali jumpa habis ditry semua. -____- i mean,selagi ada peluang makan laaa.

different case during high school.senang mau kurus sebab kalau malas pegi dewan makan,stay jak la didorm.makanan pun fixed setiap minggu so pandai boring juga even lauk dia ayam/daging.ehhhh,teringat aku girl-girl budak pegi tapau makanan. :) entah kenapa la disini susah betul aku mau tahan makan.

oleh yang demikian,akan mula menahan makan pada esok hari dengan hanya berbreakfast (paling penting di alam semesta) serta lunch sahaja.

sudah la sekarang ni mau exam,banyak berfikir = banyak guna ATP.

kbye!

jumpa di TUMBLR ; smiling isnt enough,you gotta laugh.

THE UGLY TRUTH

2011-10-10T10:31:00.000-07:00

if you keep exchanging glances with this one guy,you sorta got the feeling that he likes you.the UGLY TRUTH is,a guy who really likes you will approach you instead of giving you 'glances' no matter how shy he is.unless,he's stupid enough to let other guy steal you.

bear this fact in your mind until you're married.

p/s ; thank you to my loyal commenters.ILY!XOXO.

random morning post-1

2011-10-09T18:25:00.000-07:00

le morning people.

kawan-kawan aku semua ada segmen masing-masing.wordless wednesday,spontaneous thursday,so aku pun mau minta puji la konon ada segmen sendiri which is random morning post.the -(number) is the counter. :) basically,i'll write anything that cross my mind on that particular time.thats all.easy.(maybe i should put copyright on RMP.lol)

yesterday,i met my dad at KL Sentral.he's going back to Sabah.oh lord i feel like i want to ditch everything and just hop on the plane with him. T _____ T he's usual pesanan will be BELAJAR BETUL-BETUL,HATI-HATI GUNA DUIT.we ate at Meal's Station.ei,semua pekerja dia macam dari Thailand.unable to speak malay properly which led to a lot of miscommunication.heh.

final exam is 2weeks from now.WISH ME LUCK!i really on my way to get that number 4. :) still a lot more to catch up but as long as im focused,it'll be okay.im postive.i feel great.oh yeah!

im over the youtube controversy.past is past.what i learnt from this issue ; YOU ARE A LIFELESS SOUL IF YOU CANT DO THINGS THAT YOU LOVE.nuff said. <-- still not gonna stop though.you say what you want,i still gonna do what I LOVE.kthanks.

sooo thirsty.kbye!xoxo.

p/s : hey,takkan tengok jak?klik la Ms. Nuffy aku.tabung Beats by Dr. Dre tu. :P

this is why i love tumblr. ^_____^

TOKYO PANDA

2011-10-09T08:06:00.000-07:00

hello hello hello.

i discovered Tokyo Panda when i was reading a magazine at KL Sentral.I was wow-ed by her fashion sense plus awesome life.

a japanese woman live in China,having a russian boyfriend and is a medical student.in fact,she already graduated.WOW!WOW!WOW! --> the typical medical student is thick books,glasses and nerdy kiddos.but Tokyo Panda is the only exception.kekeke.

i dont know her name. =.= i dont buy the magazine too.and I CANT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING IN HER BLOG,she write in japanese and chinese (only). T_____T

Mr. Panda and Tokyo Panda. ^^

haih,paksa delete gambar dea sebab restricted. T _____ T

okayy,i managed to google translate her blog. :) basically she posted about her daily life plus which stores she bought her things (fashion and all).oh,she's moving to a new blog.

OLD BLOG || NEW BLOG

pictures source are all from her blog.no infringement content intended.I SWEAR!

kbye!xoxo.

protecting your belief can some time bruised your own ego.

2011-10-08T10:44:00.000-07:00

hello.

after a bit of sap sap there,sap sap here,words there,words here.i finally decided to delete my videos.i even deleted my account.

initially,i was really determined to ignore everything and keep on with what im doing.but then,thank you.the way you talked really triggered me to delete my account.not in a good way but you still manage to make me delete my account. *huahhh,i thought when i got out of the school i can finally do things i really love*

it became a really hot topics in my school (judging by the way they told me).im pretty sure my name will at least once pronounced during classes.okayyy,the whole school is actually talking about me.

look guys,i've done it a long time ago.its just you who found it late.and now people think i changed since i went to KL.

NO I DONT.

I CHANGED SINCE I LEFT THE SCHOOL.

my bad if i change for worse.

in school,you all wanted me to look the way you wanted,so i gave you what you want.now that i left the place,give me some space to be myself.you might hates me,i might ruin my image but oh god,seriously??

pfft forget it.

i tried to nurture myself with all the things i've learnt for the past 5years,i failed.seeing is deceiving.what you saw is not actually real.i honestly think i've faked myself for the past 5years.not all but some.

im sorry i din meet your expectation, please please please DONT START STUPID RUMORS.

I DONT DRINK,I DONT SMOKE,I DONT DO DRUGS,I DONT EVEN HAVE A BOYFRIEND,I GO OUT AT NIGHT ONLY WITH MY CLOSE FRIENDS AND WITH MY PARENTS PERMISSION AND I STILL DONT MEMORIZE ANY STREETS IN KL APART FROM THE WAY TO MID VALLEY.

people change by the way,just saying.

google my account.its deleted.puas hati.

and then,the next time again,my blog post will be used to go against me.

sudah aku padam,stop sap sap okeh. :)

kbye!

*banyak aku mau cakap tapi crowded pula utak.

haihhh.besok besok blog lagi kana hantam.

FCK YOU ALLKPOP

2011-10-06T01:10:00.000-07:00

*rated for language abuse.dont read if you're under 18. -___- who cares anyway.

hello world.

my teacher just sent me a message telling me to delete my vids in youtube.you are great teacher and im glad the way you said it was kind and no sarcasm but im sorry,i will not.really.

anyway,have you heard about GD caught on marijuana?thanks to ALLKPOP.

but again,YOU HAVE MESSED WITH THE WRONG FANDOM mr/ms whoever behind the website.see,now what you got?THE ENTIRE WORLD HAS NOW KNOW THAT ALLKPOP IS AN ANTI-KOREAN WEBSITE.

>> CLICK HERE FOR PROOFS <<

VIP hates you,SONE hates you,BLACKJACKS hates you,A PLUS hates you,STAR1 hates you,GIRLFRIEND hates you,PLAYGIRLZ hates you,PRIMADONNA hates you,B2UTY hates you and so on.

all started of what??

of you saying BIGBANG ON THE VERGE OF COLLAPSE and G DRAGON CAUGHT ON MARIJUANA.

sriusly ALLKPOP,FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.

oh yeahh,you dont care.FUCK YOU.

kbye!

p/s : you mess with CHOI SEUNGHYUN,i'll cut your dick.

nothing's easy in this world.

2011-10-03T04:23:00.001-07:00

salam.

lately,i've been losing my confidence upon learning.i feel like i dont have the strength to make it to the end.i have been trying to hard to block my self-destructive feeling.still can smile la,no worries.

anyway,im gonna ask help from my fellow friends.ask!ask!ask!might as well as mrs. roha to teach me maths personally since im very very weak at it.i'll meet her first thing in the morning tomorrow.

maybe its because i've been skipping prayer. T_____T i deserve to die and go straight to hell but i dont want to.(inilah masalah orang zaman sekarang).

im a health freak lately.why ah?i mean,suddenly bought wholemeal bread,excerising every evening. -___-

last night i went to watch ABDUCTION with my roommate.

okayy,we sat in front.like REALLY IN FRONT.kekeke.so much fun yet so deafening.i would rate 7 out of 10.cos taylor lautner was so handsome on motorcycle and fuccccccc all the snipers.so cool.the girl also hot! :)

kbye!

p/s :

wish me luck for my MUET test tomorrow okay! :)

sudah jumpa ana raffali dan najwa latif!

2011-10-01T09:25:00.000-07:00

selamat malam semua pembaca blog.

malam selasa lalu,aku dengan aida drop dekat depan perdana siswa UM.ada karnival oo.ingatkan mau naik hot air balloon tu tapi last-last tersangkut di mini konsert. ^^ fuyoooh,ah chai tu beat boxing oh! *drool* sangat ingin belajar juga.

anyway,MC tu tiba-tiba announce ada artis tempatan mau buat show.teruja la aku kejap.lagi teruja bila ANA RAFFALI yang kuar bawa gitar.OMG.OMG.

to be honest,suara kak ana (kakak laa) best!tipis dan halus.cool oo main gitar.tsk tsk tsk.then NAJWA LATIF lagi!woahh.god must love me that night. :P so,lepas enjoy-enjoy tu aku tarik aida pegi tepi stage,mau ambil gambar dgn dorang.nasib baik laa sempat cos kak ana time tu mmg ready-ready suda mau berangkat.

mcm besa laa,terpaksa berebut / queque tunggu turn mau be gambar.aku mau gambar artis,orang lain yg interframe.sabo je la.

anyway,ini saja gambar yang ada.sorry la,orang macam saya ni mana la layak pegang SLR lagi. T.T

aku pun heran kenapa aku huduh betul dlm gambar-gambar diatas.mungkin sebab belum mandi kot. :P idc.yg penting sudah jumpa dorang dua. ^ _____________________ ^

kbye!

for once,leave me alone.

2011-09-29T08:57:00.000-07:00

hello.

final is in the corner.im still struggling to study with all the new knowledge everyday.but okay,can i say something?

im tired.really tired.look,if i distance myself myself from you,DEAL WITH IT.we're friends but not THAT CLOSE.i mean,dont you have any other friends?i probably will regret saying this later but now,i want you to fuck off.i hate faking myself so yeah,I WANT YOU TO LEAVE.

get mad,get upset,get boiled,curse me,tell people how fucked up i am.its better than i have to pretend that im okay and fake my smile.

besok besok kalau mood aku sudah cool down,aku tegur juga kau balik.kau jangan la cari pasal okeh.I AM VERY RUDE BEHIND MY CHEERFUL SELF.and when i rant i dont think.i just speak and you know what happen when people talk without brain.

marah la kalau kau mau,bawa la satu dunia kawan kau baca benda ni.

personally,aku macam mau tampar jak kau.KAU SIAPA MAU TERIAK AKU MACAM TU?even parents aku pun ndak buat macam tu.kau marah ndak kana bawa?WHO CARES.

lepas hari tu,FULLSTOP.SAMPAI SANA SAJA.ndak mau sua aku dekat-dekat kau.GO AWAY.JANGAN DATANG DEKAT AKU LAGI.KAU PEGI LA SAMA KAWAN-KAWAN AKU TAPI BUKAN AKU.

kbye!

hello earthlings

2011-09-23T05:02:00.000-07:00

basically its exactly one week after i posted something on my blog.i was so busy.on the other hand,this LAZY ASS SYNDROME keep infecting me.this week had been an up and down hill journey.though i cant really recall many events except some that was particularly meaningful,annoying,funny and shocking shall i say.

i cried today.really hard.i stood in front of my friend crying like a child just because i was UPSET.god damn she blurted out about the KMW 11 tomorrow.i seriously fcking forgot about it and there she was,prying about the concert tomorrow.for god's sake GD&TOP will be there tomorrow.they'll walk on the same land im standing right now!akdhjgfhsgfshjgfdhsj im getting excited over nothing.

final semester around 32 days from now.while all of my friends in ASASI UITM,UIA and MATRIX are battling with their final exam at the moment.

GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY!

in some time of my life,i dont like when people wished me 'good luck' during exam and i dont wish people good luck.it was when i was 14-16 years old.my belief that time is that exam was not based on luck.it was based on your hard work / effort.but slowly i started wishing people again once i was in form 4 till now(i guess).i cant recall if i ever wished good luck to my friends during mid sem test. :3

anywaysss,i've been missing the fun of life lately.okay,maybe im not.i laughed everyday,i eat everyday,i speak to all of my friends,no one particularly 'cari gaduh' with me but i have to admit it,my hormones are controlling me right now.i almost,ALMOST shout / slap my chemistry partner.it came to a point when i just shut the hell up and stop the argument.phewww.then lectures this evening,well.i nearly cry cos i cant frigging sit beside my friends.its a SIMPLE matter yet this hormone. =___= practically,my expression was TERRIBLE throughout the evening.

im done blabbering.kbye earthlings!

extra :

i swear to god i have a blue contact lens,the colour is just the same!exactly IDENTICAL!OMG TOP.when you landed here tomorrow (or probably tonight),please find me and i'll be a goody-goody wifey. :P

SELAMAT HARI MALAYSIA!

2011-09-15T18:06:00.000-07:00

i know I LOVE SOUTH KOREA SO MUCH but IM STILL PROUD TO BE A MALAYSIAN.

kbye.

AIGOOO,CUTE BETUL.

2011-09-11T09:44:00.000-07:00

hello hello hello.

setelah puas memerah keringat membuat tutorial (konon laaa),lets online!

i switched to blogger's new design.ajdshfgdsfhdgfhga so cool. :3

*click to enlarge*

i just watched 2NE1 TV and it was uploaded like 4days ago. TT _ TT aigooo.DARA was totally CUTE ohhhhh.along with BOM.so squishy.nom nom nom. :3 lately i've been copying DARA's signature.i admit it.anyhow,i put the video here so you can enjoy it okayy.

lets see,i've been saying ddu-dung everyday,i tap my fingers on my nose,i make expressions.wahahaha.i know i failed but who cares.i've also been singing their song all week.dont cry,i dont care,lonely,ugly,hate you,YOU NAME IT.i sing it all.

i have CALCULUS and ALGEBRA test this week.wish me luck okeh!xoxo.

kbye!

saya aim ingin menjadi blogger famous menjelang tanggal 4 Oktober 2011

2011-09-11T02:14:00.000-07:00

hello hello hello.

long time no blogging.almost a week.i know im not keeping my promise early.my bad. <-- please punch me.haha.

anyway,went thru my goal book just now and i saw this particular target

I am a famous blogger on 04th october 2011 on 7am.

this is the 5th list in my 101 Dream lists.

saya tahu oktober 2011 hampir tiba.saya tahu saya cuma ada 3 minggu 2 hari dari sekarang untuk menentukan sama ada impian saya ini akan menjadi kenyataan atau tidak.

jadi sekarang ini tidak ada masa untuk lugai-lugai. >.< saya perlu menukar ANGAN-ANGAN kepada KENYATAAN.

WILL YOU HELP ME? :)

BANTU MEMBANTU ITU AMALAM MULIA TAU. :3

xoxo.

THIS I PROMISE YOU.

2011-09-03T03:10:00.000-07:00

i've been so busy beraya.

tomorrow im goin back to KL and start studying (again)

i will update my blog everyday.

I PROMISE.

kbye!

hari raya pertama. ^^

finally sticked all my posters! :D

buku ni betul la.dia tau bapa aku suruh aku jadi doktor.dia tau aku tak berani sambung course dalam ARTS.

2011-08-28T22:48:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raya folks.

that day i went to 1Borneo.i bought a book.a really AWESOME POWERFUL book written by JACK CANFIELD,author of CHICKEN SOUP FOR SOUL.

i bought to boost my self-enrichment.

and it did.

i was just in PRINCIPLE 2 (there are 25 PRINS) and i was boomed in that particular principle.

exactly.bapa aku mau aku jadi doktor.and now aku on the way mau jadi doktor.

ASASI SAINS HAYAT UM.

aku ndak mau jadi doktor.

for god's sake,thats the last job i want.

WE GOT A "REAL JOB" INSTEAD OF PURSUING OUR CAREER IN THE ARTS.

so true.

I DONT LIKE SCIENCE (ANYMORE)

I WANT TO DO ARTS.

I'VE DONE COUNTLESS PERSONALITY TEST.

AND EVERYTIME I GOT ARTISTIC.

but again,the book told me to stop complaining / blaming things but yourself.

so i will not blame my parents.

its me who dumb enough to follow my parents dream instead of my own.

kbye.

YG ELITIST

2011-08-28T07:27:00.000-07:00

my posterrrrrrrrr!!!

I FRIGGIN GOT BOM CARD!

<3<3

ddu-dungggggggg!

IM A PROUD YG ELITIST,

kbye!

went to open fasting with cousins tonight. :)

I LOVE YOU ALL SIS!

xoxo.

ELF + VIP

2011-08-25T06:22:00.000-07:00

i already touched it,JEALOUS? xD

its fathim's.

and this is MINE. xD

kbye!

mood balik SABAH.

2011-08-25T05:28:00.000-07:00

im an attention seeker.

did i just get your attention?

kbye!

my life in a gif.

BITCH,SHUT UP.

2011-08-23T07:26:00.000-07:00

selamat malam.

so,classes went as usual today.note that im a happy-go-lucky bish this week since im goin back to sabah this friday.so,around 8.30am there's these two fellas came and gave us a survey about suicide.survey is normal la kan.but what is not normal is when you discuss each question with your friends.WTF.thats what happened.

BITCHES BEHIND ME AND MY FRIENDS DISCUSSED EVERY SINGLE QUESTIONS IN THE SURVEY.WITH THEIR HIGH PITCH VOICES AND CACKLES,I SWEAR MY EARDRUMS NEARLY BURST.BITCHES,YOU WERE HURTING MY EARS.BITCHES ARE KILLING ME.

seriously bitches,yeah you can discuss the 100++ questions,who cares?I DONT CARE EH EH EH EH EH.but i care when your voice is in volume 190%.just shut up and answer the question laaa.its that hard?huh?do that questions were as hard as our mid sem test?huh?

so,out of anger i said 'BITCH,SHUT UP.'

surely,they went quiet and startled fo a minute and then continue talking.BITCHES,REALLY?REALLY BITCHES?i swear if you meet me online,you'll DIE.i'll crush your self-esteem until you feel like you're a fat pig.

you see,this is ramadhan.i was suppose to be a goody-goody girl next door but YOU BITCHES,really ruining my mood.next time me dont wanna sit near BITCHES.you want to sit beside me?prepare fo some BITCHES-CALLING okay.

i cant be polite,sorry.you were the one triggered my curse button.serves you right BITCHES.i dont care what you say,you are disturbing the public comfort.YOU DESERVE SOME BITCHES-CALLING.

U MAD?STAY MAD COS IDGAF.

kbye!

P/S : finally,i started ranting.

beza DULU dan SEKARANG.

2011-08-22T02:55:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum.

DULU
/paling lewat bangun jam 6am.
NOW
/paling lewat jam 7am.

DULU
/7am,langit suda terang.
NOW
/7AM,masih gelap.

DULU
/makanan semua dewan makan urus = FREE
NOW
/makanan sendiri = money byebye

DULU
/setiap waktu solat ada orang bagi annoucement suruh solat.
NOW
/teda sepa kesah aku solat ka ndak.

DULU
/social circle = 1SABAH
NOW
/social circle = 1MALAYSIA

DULU
/satu kelas ada 26 kepala
NOW
/1 kuliah ada 400++ kepala

DULU
/CP,warisan,1B,karamunsing
NOW
/midvalley,BTS,KLCC,masjid jamek

DULU
/pegi kelas muka suci
NOW
/eyeliner,BB cream,compact powder,lip gloss

DULU
/orang dating kana sindir maut
NOW
/kau dating la 12am,teda yang kesah.

DULU
/senang menari,dorm luas.
NOW
/susah.bilik rasa sempit.

sometimes i hate TUMBLR.

2011-08-21T01:27:00.000-07:00

cos it feels like everyone on my dash know how to use photoshop and here i am,still using photoscape.
everyone know how to make gif,and here i am reblogging infinity.
everyone has their TUMBLR bestfriends who trolling with them and here i am,FOREVER ALONE.
the TUMBLR famous got like 15++ anon if they reblog a post asking fo question and here i am,even if i reblog 15 posts asking for Q's,there will never be any.
they post pictures of their collections and here i am,just have my first BB album and they were like a rack already. ; ____ ;
there's this people who ship SPRINGTEMPO / GD-KIKO.nehhhh,i dont want TOP being paired with anybody except me.of course i have to fake it,reblog it and pretend like i bless them. *___-
and the fact that im sharing him with millions chicks around the world. *sigh*
oh well,sometimes i hate watching his everything.lulz.cos i know i was never meant to be with him.

kbye!

P/S ; i think i shud probably start to rants.

why do i still have a soft spot for him?

2011-08-20T08:31:00.000-07:00

i hate this.even if it happened like years ago,

i still have that tingly feeling whenever i heard his name mentioned.

we're close but never close.

i know he thought im a slut,cheap and uhhh everything.

but hey,i made mistakes.

YOU made mistakes.

so yes,i dont really care what people think.

even if i let out a blood tears,those mistakes can never be reversed

so i have to live with it and use it as a learning tool.

you know what i mean,right?

so when people brought up your past/mistakes,BE COOL.cos the time will come when people will brought up their mistakes too. :P

CHILL.

majlis buka puasa dengan chief minister Sabah wordless saturday

2011-08-19T19:17:00.000-07:00

smeshian 0610

bila mood belajar terbang ke Seoul

2011-08-15T08:25:00.000-07:00

anneyong!

O.N.L.I.N.E

today,we learnt new topics on calculus which was DIFFERENTIATION.i hate differentiation.honest,i dont understand a single bout it in high school.its a pain in the ass subject for me.so,when the professor gave examples,i dont get a single point of it.furthermore she was HELLA SPEEDO when teaching. ; ___ ; this cant be happening.maths is a COMPULSORY subject.if i failed it,byebye dentistry. >___<

and for some reason,i dont have any momentum to study tonight.my roommate its probably the semangat-balik-kampung but no i dont think so.yes im happy i will be sleeping in sabah two weeks from now but thats not it.i feel like a really stupid useless bitch when i din study.why?because in my mind the whole PASUM were studying like tomorrow is the final exam but here i am,updating my blog and O.N.L.I.N.E.pfftttt.

i must sleep on 12am.hopefully i can get up early tomorrow and study bio.got test oooo.

just to share,during lecture i turned back and BOOM!there's my crush right in front of my eyes.direct.like god wants me to have easy access to him or vice versa.kekeke.anyway,its nothing.

forgive me for whining,but i can perfectly wear a contact lens on my right eyes but i suck when it comes to my left eyes. ; ___ ; FAILED.

kbye!

Day 8 - 10 of your favourite song

2011-08-15T02:09:00.000-07:00

according to my most played playlist,

IM THE BEST - 2NE1
HOT SUMMER - F(X)
A BETTER DAY - HYUNAH
BUBBLE POP - HYUNAH
LOLLIPOP - 2NE1 FT BIGBANG
KISS - 2NE1
PRICETAG - JESSIE J
WAIT A MINUTE - PCD
IT HURTS - 2NE1
UGLY - 2NE1

soooo ??

kbye.

Day 7 - 10 important people

2011-08-14T09:09:00.000-07:00

salam.

mama and abah
CHOI SEUNGHYUN.
fareha marshanda , dulcie j david
BANNED BAND
me roommate ; azean.
le UM gangs ; aimie,aizan,apek,aida.
tutorialmate S2
2NE1
PARKBOM.
my followers (BS,TUMBLR).

seriously?CSH in ranking 2 eventhough he din noe i exists?!oh well,cant help myself.

sejak bila aku ANTI nasi ni?

2011-08-14T05:12:00.000-07:00

anneyong!

huuu.hari ni aku dalam mood tag so lepas update ne akan buat tag yg telah lama terabai. :D

anywayssss,aku ndak suka makan nasi sekarang.IDEK.kalau pegi tapau nasi untuk buka posa,satu senduk nasi jak = ndak sampai 1/2 pun tapau tu aku isi nasi.furthermore,aku jarangggggg makan lauk sekarang. -____- nasi/sayur/kuah.CUKUP.kalau pegi bazaar,konpom aku ndak beli nasi.ish ish ish.

aku pun heran dengan aku. :o

hari ni aku pegi library.aku rasa library ni SECOND COLLEGE aku. :3 walau jauh (i think its a 5minutes journey),aku sanggup juga pegi.semata-mata mau duduk di library. *kagum dengan keinginan diri sendiri* <-- bukan ujub okeh.so,aku stay sampai jam 3++ pm sebab 4pm library close.

aku rasa uncle library tu ingat sudah muka aku. :D

kbye!

baju raya aku warna hijau tua tahun ne!

2011-08-13T10:31:00.000-07:00

NEW POST IN MY KPOP BLOG!

anneyong!

so,i went to masjid india and bought baju raya along with a pashmina and a gladiator. :D ME GUSTA!

wont post the picture cos SURPRISE!kekekeke.

baru aku sedar,macam 3 hari berturut-turut sudah aku te mimpi TOPPPPPPPP jak. * ____ - what's that suppose to mean?like just now i dreamed i hide behind his back from someone.i swear i can feel his rigid body!

; _____ ;

yah choi seunghyun,come here and get me!

kbye!

Birthday celebration at Midvalley

2011-08-12T10:23:00.000-07:00

NEW POST IN MY KPOP BLOG! :D PLEASE VISIT.

hello.

its 1.13am.

and we'll have jati diri's class in the morning and the title is STRESS MANAGEMENT.sriusly?i think its too late to make a stress speech here.its been almost 2 months now.they should do it the first time a our schedule started. -___- donchu think so?

anyway,i went to midvalley just now to celebrate one my tutorialmate birthday.actually there's 2 of them but one of them cant make it.nvm.so,we went to Dominos.haaaa.we eat,laugh,chit chat,snapshots and finally took a walk at the cinema's area. * ___ * i actually really really really want to play at the holiday planet.kekeke.main tembak-tembak.lulz.btw,growball di CP lagi besar dari holiday planet. o.o

so,yeah.its a fun night. :) thank you to all.even only 6 out of 22 who make it to the ceremony??? :D next week open fasting togetha!hurrahhhh.

you know,there's this one strange thing.my jokes were NEVER passed among my sabahan frens.and suddenly my peninsular frens keep saying 'lawak la awak ni.' *___- whaaaa?nigga,really?so in the end aizan came with a conclusion.

joke aku menjadi dengan orang semenanjung jak.sama orang sabah gagal.

LOLOLOLOLOLOL.

kbye!

just please,I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. ; ____ ; find me please so we can get married.

------------

(the never ending frustration of a fangirl)

MY NEW KPOP BLOG

2011-08-11T11:02:00.000-07:00

http://mykoreandreams.blogspot.com/

to all K-lovers,follow me! :3

so handsome,so priceless.so speechless.

*marry me?*

sometimes i wish i was never into KPOP

2011-08-11T06:23:00.000-07:00

ddu-dung !

well,i dont exactly know how to explain my title.my reasons might be silly but that is how i truly felt for as long as im into KPOP.

now now,where do i begin this.

this is for point no. 8

turn to point no. 4

and minzy was just 16 by the time they took this picture (okay,maybe 17)

click picture for enlargement.

point no. 1

so tell me,where can i find i guy with killing eyes like him in malaysia?and i'll supply your life forever.

okay maybe not.

point no. 6

i have a HUGE urge to be slim.like really slim.i tried to beat Hara's weight.i succeeded but now blehhh.im 45kg.now im tryong to be in the same level as Dara which is 40kg.
i rarely watched the concerts/music shows in youtube becos i will get mad watching the fans who were able to attend the shows,much worst if they were on the FRONT SEAT.
then,i will get jealous of the celebrity itself.being equally talented and educated (most of them are in university).i mean watthaheck?!busy ass but still manage to attend U?!im only in asasi and already dead.
also some of them were YOUNGER than me or in the 93 LINES. T.T its like,you're just 16 and you already wear jeremy scott's design. *sobbing*
the pretty faces,i shall not say any words.you-know-what.so pretty that you sigh and think 'why cant god just give me that flawless skin?am i that bad?' LOL.yes,you are that bad. -____-
and the handsome faces makes you feel like okay,i will marry a guy like that some day but you know the truth.unless you are living in korea or an ulljjang in your country,I DONT THINK YOU OR ME HAVE ANY CHANCES TO MARRY GUY LIKE THAT.nuff said.
i was so into arts and at some point i thought of leaving school and just travel to korea and well,learn to to survive until some company hired me.of course it was just a silly dream and i will never accomplish it cos i dont have the guts to leave.
they look hell good in pictures or video.i mean hell motha fcking good.take ur camera and candidly snap a selca.press the preview button.you judge yourself.but why do they they din have to work hard to pose eh?
and they are able to communicate with the other celebrities.they're maybe not close but they're still communicating.backstage together,variety shows together and so on blablabla.
my last point,where do i can find a guy like ________ (insert your bias name) in my country?if i found one,will he wants me????

see,the never ending frustration of being a fangirl.

P/S ; i've got points,din i?

kbye!

yeah,scream 'LIFE IS UNFAIR' and basically cry.

what do i really want in a relationship?

2011-08-10T02:09:00.000-07:00

I DONT FCKING KNOW.

look,everytime i read articles from mags or internet or whatever stuffs were it,the common sentences were

take a break and think what you really want in a relationship.so next time,you wont screw up.

MR/MS behind-the-article,you tell me.i've been thinking about it since my last relationship went hectic and i cant find any asnwer that satisfy my guts.

i think its something you will found accidently,like in the time you most din expect.

you see,people said he's getting thinner.i see he's still the old Kang Daesung.only emotionally different.

I MISS HIM.

please go broadcast ASAP. T.T *le sobbing*

laporan ramadhan 5/6/7

2011-08-07T09:09:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum.

i really want to meet PARK BOM.

ME LOVE HER! <3

ramadhan ke-5 exam physics 2 dengan chemist 1.

aku te salah tengok jadual.aku pikir chemist dulu,skali physics dulu.lepas sahur baru aku perasan.OHMYGAD!macam mau jatuh jantung aku time tu.last-last aku read thru jak semua nota physics.hafal-hafal mana yg patut.

bila sampai didewan,aku pasrah sua.bila before buka paper,baca bismillah.bila baca soalan,TERSEUNYUM.kenapa?sebab okehhh,soalan dia x la senang sangat tapi bolehhhhhh la.boleh jawab.inshaallah hasil dia okayy juga nanti.

lepas tu chemist,jam 3pm.okeh jugaaaaa.heeee.no comment.

anywaysss,ada cerita bha hari jumaat tu. :) excited aku mau cerita ni.

bila keluar dari dewan lepas chemist tu kan (4pm ++),ramai la kami balik ne.ada segelintir insan yg bawa mobil.eya,mobil itu kereta ya incik-incik dan puan-puan.aku lek jak.sekali ntah kenapa tiba-tiba berlawan hon kereta durang tu.mau tunjuk sepa yg paling hebat kali.bhaaaa,start sana aku pikir what-the-heck?!

automatic aku teriak HEI,MINTA PUJI JUA!AKU CALAR KERETA KAU TU.KAU TINGUK JAK NANTI.KAU TINGUK JAK.aku rasa semua orang keliling aku tinguk aku. O.O aku x kesah pun actually.sepa suruh,bising betul.setakat KANCIL,bagus x payah mau bising-bising.

alright-alright.my bad.ada KANCIL tu lagi bagus dari teda KANCIL.okeh.okeh.

but,TENGOK-TENGOK la okayy?

ramadhan ke-6,aku pegi reunion di BTS dengan ex-smeshian.sedih jua sebab bukan semua datang.but,nanti la aku upload gambar ahhh.aku yakin semua yg punyai belog sudah mengupload gambar-gambar segala.

aku jumpa kedai KPOP d BTS tu.seriously,rambang mata ooooo.dia jual mini album 2NE1 60 MYR jak. T.T murah berbanding yg aku order harga 70 MYR.10 MYR beza dia!mahal tu.bleh belanja makan 1 hari di PASUM. -____- anywaysss,aku jumpa jua album PLAY WITH GD&TOP.no wonder la 130 MYR.besar dan berat ooo album tu.lebih lebar dari laptop biasa. * _____ * ME GUSTA!anywayss,not buy it cos too mahal.im saving money in case ada konsert 2NE1/BIGBANG di malaysia pada masa akan datang.

last-last aku beli keychain TOP and BIGBANG pencil case.next time aku pegi sana mau beli t-shirt BIGBANG and kipas GD untuk me dongsaeng. :3

ramadhan ke-7,aku pegi ruma auntie aku.saja jak,mau tinguk TV. :D aku zzzz,dengar lagu dan jaga qish.ahaha.bukan jaga actually,tinguk2 jak sebab dia mau nangis bila aku dtg dekat.kekeke.muka kin takut kan.LOLS.

bhaaaaa,lewat sua ne.jam 12.05am.

kbye!

Hari Muka Shit

2011-08-04T09:31:00.000-07:00

anneyong haseyo *bows*

GUYLINER.. :3 ME GUSTA!

hari ni hari ke-4 ramadhan.sedihnya baru tadi Allah Bagi Cuti (ABC).

ramadhan ke-3 hanya ada paper MATHS ALGEBRA.aku rasa okehhhhh laaaa.majoriti aku dapat jawab,ada la 2-3 tu aku main tembak jak. :D <-- style high school.inshaallah boleh la dekat-dekat 4.00.amin. (cepat aminkan!)

back to the 4th of ramadhan.

last night i drink instant coffee KOPIKO.mau stay up konon sebab paper besok dia (which is today) are CELL BIO,BI and MATHS CALCULUS.subjek killer o!paling hebat pernah aku stay up dengan coffee ialah jam 3.30am.tapi semalam/tadi subuh,1 MALAM AKU NDAK TIDUR. * _____ * aku be guling-guling dikatil tu mau tidur.pucat sudah aku kalau aku te tidur time exam nanti.sudah la 1 jam jak,soalan ada 50 (BIOLOGY).

sekali lepas subuh aku te tidur juga.bangun jam 7am pegi iron baju,phewww.rasa macam mau pitam oo.mata panda tahames.mood pun x tentu.exam killer lagi.

sebab itu la aku panggil hari ni Hari Muka Shit.

aku tia senyum langsung sepanjang hari,except sama best crazy friends aku la.zeriously i made the bitches-make-way-for-this-goddess look to every single one of the human creature today.i mean hello,aku mengantuk tahames x masa mau mesra-mesra.apapun,IM SORRY.ini semua salah hormon. <-- manusia memang suka menyalahkan benda lain.

waktu exam tiba-tiba ada handphone be bunyi.aku relax jak sebab besa laaaa.ACCIDENT. :) tapi aku termarah bila laaaamaaaa dia be bunyi dan tuan punya handphone tu senyum-senyum.oh god,kau pikir senyum-senyum tu boleh kasi silent handphone kau?!tolong ahh.CHEAP PUBLICITY.

sudah tu lepas BI.boleh-boleh tu invegilator cakap 'okay,who's next?' bermaksud siapa yg akan keluar dewan seterusnya.bitch,really?you asked me who's next?time tu mendung tahames busset mau hujan,kolej agak jauh dari dewan exam,kau bleh tanya WHO'S NEXT?!nigga.

but anywaysss,x hujan juga. -_____- tu laaa,marah-marah teda poin.bikin misery hidup jak.

bah,sudah la aku membebel ni.mau zzzz.besok CHEMIST 1 sama PHYSICS 2.belum habis lagi study chem,belum sentuh phy.

kbye.

p/s : semua student PASUM kenal kami 3 ka?mana-mana pegi mesti kana tinguk. (perasan???) ntah laa.malam mau pikir.

p/s/s/ ; taubat ndak mau minum coffee lagi.

laporan ramadhan 1/2.

2011-08-03T04:30:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

hari 1st puasa,not bad.aku ada sahur. :) bangun jam 4.30am.lepas tu siang ada exam BIOLOGY REPRODUCTION.alhamdulillah senang.lepas tu buka puasa dengan aimie.aku ndak pegi tarawih sebab malam tu aku kejar dunia (mau belajar chemist sama physics).

hari 2nd puasa.masih ada sahur.(sunat tau sahur).lepas tu exam BASIC CHEMIST 2 and BASIC PHYSICS 1.so far okeh juga.aku dapat jawab tapi ntah la jawapan tu betul ka ndak.buka puasa dengan aimie n azean.iftar jamaih gitu. :P we all pegi tarawih semalam.8rakaat jak + witir 3rakaat.selesa.dewan ada aircond.selipar pun ndak akan TABAK. :)

hari 3rd,unbelievable cos aku x tebangun dengan alarm.5.30am baru sedar,nasib sempat sahur.bayangkan alarm jam 4.30am aku bangun jam 5.30am.boleh kamu imagine betapa penatnya aku?nooo,BETAPA PENATNYA HIDUP DI ASASI.heeee. *positive positive* jam 2.30pm exam MATHS ALGEBRA & GEOMETRI.okeh juga.aku dapat jawab tapi ntah jawapan bleh pakai ka ndak.ada la 1 2 soalan aku blank tahames so haaa,main hitam jak tu OCR. :D :D hampir-hampir x cukup masa.tapi bila dia cakap berenti menulis,aku memang STOP sua.

rn,tengah tunggu azan maghrib.ohh,hari ni x pegi tarawih sbb kejar dunia. -_____- besok paper BIO CELL BIO / BI / MATHS CALCULUS. subjek killer aku tu CALCULUS.CELL BIO pun belum aku sentuh.gerun.format BI pun aku belum pegi tengok camna.jadi malam ni will be a VERY tiring night.

kbye!

p/s : jumaat ni semangat aku mau pegi pasar malam UM.heee,mau beli lens lagi. *addicted sama lens suda even failed bila mau pakai* sabtu jalan pegi beli baju raya + buka puasa sama batch 0610 yg ada di KL!BULANNNNNNNNN I MISS YOU! :3

sharing of RAMADHAN ; tagged by apekblogger.blogspot.com

2011-07-31T05:14:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum *mood ramadhan*

alright,this is the 2ND entry for today.

as you know,tomorrow will be the 1st ramadhan of 2011. *uhuk uhuk* and this is my first time fasting out of SABAH.and this is my first fasting as a grown up girl *kind of*

so,some resolution for RAMADHAN 2011

less cursing / NO cursing at all.you see,i curse alot.sometime it become a reflex. * ___ *
no excessive foods during buka puasa. :D
save money!
yes,khatam al-quran. *from syafirah ruslan a.k.a BULAN* a day a juzuk. *though im not confident because the schedule here is hectic yet nothing is impossible right?*
cover back all the syllabus for the past 1 month.zeriouzly.
i want to make a mind map notes! --> every possible notes.
i need some changes in my life yet i still dont know / decide it yet.
BASICALLY,WHAT IS YOUR GOOD PURPOSE IN RAMADHAN IS MINE TOO. :)
less mengumpat *benda wajib perempuan*

after mid sem test ni,akan membuat REFLEKSI.okay,maybe i got the NUR already. *thank god*

nigga,aku pasrah sama result mid sem test aku kali ni.sebab hahhhhh,teda belajar.ada la juga tapi ndak cukup effort dia.so,first semester exam nanti inshaallah akan perform.amin.

kbye! *need to study chemistry / physics*

ada 'clique' tu BEST okayy.deal with real life.

2011-07-31T04:18:00.001-07:00

assalamualaikum warahmatullah.

from WIKIPEDIA ; is an inclusive group of people who share common interests, views, purposes, patterns of behavior, or ethnicity.^[1] A clique as a reference group can be either normative or comparative. Membership in a clique is typically exclusive, and qualifications for membership may be social or essential to the nature of the clique. The word clique may be used pejoratively.

sejarah clique dalam hidup aku ;

high school = clique tahames busset.form 1 sampai form 3,batch aku paling famous clique ni.tiap kali kena panggil senior mesti pasal CLIQUE.they bla bla bla,tanya 'napa batch kamu ni suka sangat bersuku-suku?' and bla bla bla again.

well,let me tell you the UGLY TRUTH now seniors,people and to the whole SMESHIAN who asked why we LOVED CLQIUE.

1.you feel really comfortable with friends of the same skin.apa erti kawan kalau TIDAK SEKEPALA kan?kalau jajal,mesti mau kawan dengan yang jajal juga kan?kalau pandai,mesti mau dengan yang pandai juga.(s)he will not jeopardize (s)he bright future by mixing with the bad person.UNLESS,iman kuat betul. :D this doesnt mean,we din bercampur dengan orang lain,cuma 'jarang'.hell,kalau kami bercampur pun,apa jua yg mau dibincangkan?heeee.

2.to make you feel safe.hah!dont lie to me.clique tu macam family you all sudah. *sebab rapat kan* apa kamu rasa dengan family kamu?SELAMAT kan.it feels like you're free to do anything without the fear of criticism.

3.they are people that you actually TRUST in the world full of lies.nuff said.

but after analysing the facts,the REAL reason why we love CLIQUE by that time was because we're still in the maturing a.k.a growing phase.maybe by that time your batch were already NO CLIQUE or whatsoever and you demand OUR batch to be NO CLIQUE also but guess we're pretty bit slow mo. :3 we all have our different maturity level so you cant do anything if they slow mo.DEAL WITH IT.

and in real life,CLIQUE is fun/exciting/one thing that make you feel safe *other than being with your lovey dovey family* and there's NO WAY you can banish it.

my point is,take CLIQUE in a good way *well,sometimes in bad way* :)

kbye!

p/s : besok RAMADHAN ! hurrah !

i bought ulljjang lens

2011-07-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

anneyong haseyo.

the price is 18 MYR but 34 MYR including the solution.im soooo excited!later i will upload the pictures. :3 but me so sad cause some of the pics i wanna upload were broken??cannot be readed. * ____ * nevermind.

my new hobby is karaoke-ing in youtube.hehehe.i bet me neighbours were dead already listening me voice.i dont care.

me wanna sleep already.bye peopleeeeeee.

THE FACE SHOP!

new BB cream along with compact BB.

MADE IN KOREA.

hafta tell ya,i dont really like kimchi. :/

JUST LIKE HER I WANNA BE PRETTY

2011-07-28T18:55:00.000-07:00

2 words ; MIND BLOWING

when i first heard this song last night,myself has gone MAD/OVER THE EDGE/CRAZY.this one music has described what millions,scratch that.BILLIONS of other girls feeling around the world.unnie,you all so cool. :3 and then,and dont worry,you all so pretty.

I DONT REGRET BUYING THEIR MINI ALBUM.

holycow,5 all kill songs in various charts.yes yes,IM VERY PROUD OF YOU UNNIES *okay,im older than minzy.she's 17,im almost 18* even they never know i exists *le sigh* alright,im gonna make something to make them recognize me.

i will ; do lonely,it hurts,you and i,dont cry,ugly sing cover. *i mean it.i will do it one step at a time.do im the best dance cover.gotta collect 2NE1's stuffs.omg omg.who's going to NOLZA?!buy the 2NE1 headband for me!

me wanna me wanna !

okayyyyyyy. *gasps*

i just remember that i promised if i din get A in maths,bio,chem and BI i will not allowed to shop K-merchandises.WTF!i must get A.i promised myself.thats betraying myself if i din get A's and still shop.NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

kbye guys.gotta get some foods to fill my stomach. :3

bila mid semester test diumpamakan semester 1 exam

2011-07-27T06:22:00.000-07:00

everybody is freaking study 24/7.

i guess thats what you get when you're studying in the most prestigous university in your country.

eyegasm.

read this if you want to learn something valuable

2011-07-25T09:32:00.000-07:00

QUESTION ON JEALOUSY

how should the person stop the mind that wishes to compare ones own qualities with others qualities and feel bad about it? How someone applies rejoice instead of comparision?

Jealousy makes you unsettled, have no peace, be unhappy and act in ways that make you deteriorate and be alone. How can you be jealous of other people who work hard and do well? They deserve their efforts and they ‘make’ you upset because they remind you of what you’re not willing to do. How can you purposely make it hard for other people to do their job because you don’t have their results? Wrong method. In the end no one likes you or your work. You will be alone, bitter and despised. Jealousy is a thief that robs you of peace, friendships, respect, and growth. Fight your jealousy, not the people who succeed. Fight your jealousy and not your friends. – Tsem Tulku Rinpoche

*yesterday i went to MPH and bought a book written by TSEM TULKU.i was really fascinated by his quotes.he's a buddhist? i guess.but his quotes are really inspiring and mind opening.

his blog ; http://blog.tsemtulku.com

his twitter ; http://twitter.com/tsemtulku

**later i update about my BB 4.5 ALBUM and stuffs. :)

im soooooooooo head over heels on him. :3

TYPEWRITER,

my sister was admmited to hospital,

living with insecurities

no kidding.

hello february.

the best thing after a month of 2012 ; BIGBANG's comeback ✖‿✖

just a story about my mid semester holiday

INFORMATION PASAL BIDANG CHEMISTRY

BAUCER RM200

generasi 90an

random thoughts

new year yang tidak berapa new year

Marilyn Monroe's Quotes(post pertama 2012)

cepatnya masa berlalu

26/12/2011 - 29/12/2011

dua hari tidak belajar,rasa bersalah macam gunung everest

kesedaran melambung-lambung

why am i losing all my friends?

semakin tua,semakin rapat dengan emak.

happy birthday Azwa! (If i could turn back time)

sehari sebelum bertukar 18

when you dont know who can speak to with enough trust

aside from praying,why do God invented me?

been silent lately..

TAKE TIME TO ANALYZE THIS FACT

MEDICAL : INTEREST OR PARENTS WISH

EPIC THE ADVENTURES OF TINTIN asjdghsgfdhs

-random morning post4

-do you really need to post this on PASUM's wall?

-this rant was supposed to be recorded

-picky bitch picky when it comes to put songs in my phone

-random morning post3

-happiness is -----

greyson chance,apakah??

kalau syafiq ahadin ada nigahiga,saya ada kingsleybitch.

i cherish every mistakes i've made.

[11 11 11] 1st Giveaway Myna !

2 in 1 entry !

11 / 11 / 11

-they say i look like Agnes Monica

HELP ME TO WIN YG FAMILY CONCERT TICKET!

-le tag from HanaHyun

i tell myself not to break down

-le weird dream

-what if malaysia has no foreigners?

-bitches i miss

-FAQ

ugly girls should-

doubtful

WISHLIST

random morning post-2 (pictures from my handphone)

physically and mentally exhausted

mau gemuk senang,mau kurus susah.

THE UGLY TRUTH

random morning post-1

TOKYO PANDA

protecting your belief can some time bruised your own ego.

FCK YOU ALLKPOP

nothing's easy in this world.

sudah jumpa ana raffali dan najwa latif!

for once,leave me alone.

hello earthlings

SELAMAT HARI MALAYSIA!

AIGOOO,CUTE BETUL.

saya aim ingin menjadi blogger famous menjelang tanggal 4 Oktober 2011

THIS I PROMISE YOU.

buku ni betul la.dia tau bapa aku suruh aku jadi doktor.dia tau aku tak berani sambung course dalam ARTS.

YG ELITIST

ELF + VIP

mood balik SABAH.

BITCH,SHUT UP.

beza DULU dan SEKARANG.

sometimes i hate TUMBLR.

why do i still have a soft spot for him?

majlis buka puasa dengan chief minister Sabah *wordless saturday*

bila mood belajar terbang ke Seoul

Day 8 - 10 of your favourite song

Day 7 - 10 important people

sejak bila aku ANTI nasi ni?

baju raya aku warna hijau tua tahun ne!

majlis buka puasa dengan chief minister Sabah wordless saturday